Rants

It's All My Fault

I've been working hard for my future.

I've been working hard for you to be in it.

But I always seem to ruin something. 

Maybe not directly, but my existence continues to ruin your life.

You and I are supposed to be happy. 

We were supposed to be best friends.

But we both wrote about each other.

Neither knows how it ends.

We've been working to change all that.

But it seems I've failed again.

What you've written about me, ruined something good for you. 

She thought it was about her. I tried to tell her the truth...

But no one listens to me. "It's not all about you this time."

But it is. I know it is. But they won't listen. 

You lost someone important to you and it's all my fault.

If I had been good to you, those words would have never been spoken. 

Those words never leaving your fingertips onto written script.

Then she would still love you, just as much as I do. 

What if I told you I saw it coming? 

I'm horrible to always think the worst.

What if I miss you but am afraid I'll just hurt you?

I really need that smile again.

What if posting this pushes you away again?

Please don't be mad.

What if this is for nothing?

It's for something I know it is.

What if they think I'm seeking attention?

I have too many thoughts to keep in

I just want you happy.

But it's all my fault. . .