i think that i am done loving you.
in any case, i am done writing about you--
or maybe it is too soon to tell.
and i hope you know i mean the first sentence loosely
and the second exactly
because i will always love you
but you will no longer be at the forefront of every thought
a wrecking ball to my sanity
the catalyst of every breaking point.
i will always love you
but it won't stop me from loving someone else
just as much
and hopefully more.
i am done writing about you
obsessing over your dark green eyes
and small mannerisms that were distinctly yours
i'll restrain from describing them
because my mind is the safest place to store them
and i'm a monster made of jealousy.
this is the last thing i'll write to profess love over you,
you boy king,
you hundred-foot skyscraper with a shoddy foundation
you bugatti chiron with no breaks.
you'll never stop for anyone
you couldn't even if you wanted to.
and maybe i'm the same way just for you.
but this is me trying
to make this the last thing i write about you.
i love you,
but that will never be enough
for either of us.
i love you,
you boy king,
you hundred-foot skyscraper with a shoddy foundation
you bugatti chiron with no breaks.
good bye.
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bittersweet recollections of your adolescence // 2019 poetry collection
Poetry❝ consider this: the world does not need saving- you do. ❞