write your truth
write the words you bury
(have kept buried
since youth).
write about how when someone says they love you
your heart clenches up and you don't know what to do
or what to say or what to think
you just know you don't love them back and
you can lead a horse to water but you cannot make it drink.
they're like insistent opportunity
the chance that lingers at your doorstep
they like to say that they won't leave
and tell you to just forget all the bad things
(they said and did
made you feel responsible for).
write about how when someone mentions children
you sit there shut your mouth quietly feel guilt ridden
because you know you don't want them
these "bundles of joy"
you leached the happiness from your mother
the term "happy family" sounds like a ploy
to market off reproduction
keep the world spinning
and maybe you don't want to
maybe it'd be better off ending.
write about how you see the world through black glasses
everyone is an assassin out to get you and put you in a casket
waiting for a slip up a mistake a mishap
be careful don't trust them you're sure it's just a trap
your friends are real sweet
but they can change
like
that.
write about how you're tired of living like this
you don't want everything to always feel like a contest
but truth be told you don't know any other way
and learning gently takes too long
you'd rather do this the hard way.
it's why you chase every boy with pretty eyes
and why you tell your friends your pretty lies
and why you paint a rainbow over the cloudy sky
that looms over every memory you've tried to hide.
write your truth,
you're too scared to speak it.
write your truth,
you silly girl,
or else you'll die with it.
YOU ARE READING
bittersweet recollections of your adolescence // 2019 poetry collection
Poetry❝ consider this: the world does not need saving- you do. ❞