homework | minsung

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"no, she's my best friend." the younger responded, "i love her, of course, but not like that."

"have you ever had a crush on her?" changbin interrogated the boy, which he hated.

"m-maybe." felix stuttered, quickly covering himself up, "i-it was only small, though! a-and it only lasted two days."

changbin stared at felix, his eyes practically burning through his soul. "that's a dick fucking move."

"it's not like i could help the way i felt." felix started to argue back, "besides, i didn't let it affect us."

"sure, you didn't let it affect us." he scoffed, "that's fucking bullshit. all you ever did was talk about her, and stay on calls with her and all this fucking shit." changbin shook his head, "i'm your boyfriend, and i'm the one you're dating, soojin isn't."

felix suddenly felt anger start to grow inside of him, as he remembered what he almost nearly forgot, "why the fuck are you getting so mad at me, huh?" he stood up, looking at changbin, "you're the one that nearly fucking dated hyunjin while we were dating."

changbin stopped for a moment, remembering the time period he liked hyunjin and hyunjin liked him back, "oh shit."

"yeah, oh shit is fucking right." felix shook his head, "i never got this worked up over the fact that you fucking wanted to try dating someone else. i never said shit about it because i wanted you to be fucking happy. i allowed you to go and fucking date him too, even though it's technically cheating considering both of us aren't into polygamy but guess what? i still fucking allowed it because i wanted you to be happy." the boy angrily sighed out, "you have no right of dragging soojin into this, knowing damn well she's taken by someone who she loves. even if i still had that tiny crush on her, it still would've meant nothing because i wouldn't fucking leave you the way you nearly left me."

"fuck." changbin cursed, feeling a wave of guilt hit him, "felix, i'm so sorry. i just, i've been holding things in for the longest time and it just finally started to unravel."

"that's so fucking hypocritical of you." felix crossed his arms, "you were the same person telling soojin that she shouldn't hold things in, considering communication is key, but look what you just fucking caused."

"i said i was sorry." changbin sighed out, "i've just been feeling like shit over this."

"and i felt like shit over you wanting to go after hyunjin, but did i ever say shit about it?" felix questioned, "did i, seo changbin?" he questioned again, "no, i fucking didn't. i've kept that shit to myself for the past fucking year because i didn't want to have you get upset with me for trying to kill your fucking happiness."

"why didn't you say anything?" changbin asked.

"because i didn't want to fucking lose you." tears hit felix as he raised his voice, knowing he hit his angry point, "i didn't want to fucking lose you, so i acted like i was okay and that i supported it."

changbin's expression softened at felix crying. the elder uncrossed his arms, wrapping them around the younger's waist, "baby, i'm sorry."

"nuh uh." felix immediately got out of changbin's grasp, moving to the other side of the room, "don't fucking touch me or try to "baby" your way out of this shit. you caused it, and now you're upset that it blew up in your face because of what past you wanted to do."

"felix, i'm sorry." the elder apologized again, "i'm shit, i know. but really, i'm sorry."

the younger shook his head, "just take your shit and leave. i don't want to be around you right now."

"we can work this out." changbin insisted.

"we'll work this out later." felix responded, "but for now, i don't want to deal with you after being hit with emotions i haven't felt since you told me you also liked hyunjin."

changbin sighed out, picking up his backpack, "i'm sorry, felix." he apologized once more, "i love you."

felix nodded his head, "i know, i love you." the boy paused, "even though i'm upset with you, you better not do any stupid shit because i love you and care for you more than anything, regardless of this situation. i promise we'll work it out, but for now, i just want to be alone."

changbin understood felix, respecting his decisions. the elder then left felix alone, where the younger broke down into tears after changbin left. he wasn't sure why he started crying, because there were so many reasons. of course he was upset about how they both kept their feelings to themselves, and how changbin was upset with him for feeling a certain way, but he felt more upset for fighting with the person he loved the most. it always took a toll on him whenever he and changbin fought, and even though they could've made up right on the spot, he still wanted to be alone just to process his own feelings. the younger pulled out his phone, wiping his tears.

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messenger
texting: changbin

felix:
i'm not kidding when i tell you to not do anything stupid, seo changbin. you're the love of my life and i can't afford to ever lose you.

changbin:
you better not do anything stupid either, lee felix.
i know we're both upset and both feeling overwhelmed by each other's emotions, but i love you more than anything, even if i've nearly fucked up in the past

felix:
i know
text me when you're home, okay?
i want to know you're safe

changbin:
okay
read @ 3:30 pm
i'm home

felix:
okay
thank you

changbin:
mhm
i love you, lix

felix:
i love you
read @ 3:50 pm

authors note:
it happened, boyz🤙
ooops i shouldn't try to joke about this
don't kill me please😔