homework | minsung

97.

messenger
texting: group chat "district nine + one."

soojin:
my parents literally just now told me
"hey soojin, we're going on a business trip to japan for two weeks, please take care of your little brother and your dog while we're gone. we'll send you money when you need it."
like bruh i cant even take care of myself,, how do you expect me to take care of hyunsoo and fluffy—
THEY LEAVE TONIGHT IM SO
WHAT THE FUCK

jisung:
fluffy won't be too hard to take care of
hyunsoo might be though, like he'd probably wanna go to places and spend money and be picky with what he eats

soojin:
he's been wanting to go to the park lately
i'll probably take him there a few times then
but they're telling me they're leaving a good amount of money for us and if it's not enough, then just call and they'll send me more

woojin:
at least they're not leaving you guys broke

soojin:
that's true

minho:
get your boyfriend to help take care of hyunsoo

soojin:
he's not my boyfriend >:(
i still haven't even told him i liked him

felix:
you don't need to tell him
the way you look at him tells him

chan:
shit
that hurt
lmfaoooo i want love

seungmin:
you're acting like a whole woojin doesn't exist

soojin:
hold up a minute

—

texting: chan

soojin:
we whispering bitch
secret time

chan:
wait why

soojin:
because you and woojin need to stop fucking around and just start dating already

chan:
but i'm terrified of commitment
that shits fucking scary
relationships are scary
you can give someone your all, and they will still fuck with you and your mind and hurt you so bad

soojin:
i know, trust me, i know
i've experienced it first hand
but if i can give relationships another shot, you can definitely give relationships at least one shot
if it doesn't go well with woojin, then you can just go back to being friends w benefits type of shit

chan:
i just really don't want my heart broken, you know?

soojin:
i know.
but sometimes it happens, which fucking sucks
but we can't control the way people feel about us
if they fall out of love, then they fall out of love
we can't chase them to come back, because it'll only make the situation worse on both sides
sometimes in life we have to put ourselves out there and do things we're afraid of doing just for the experience of it and see how we feel about it
if it doesn't go well, then you don't have to put yourself through that ever again
and blame the group chat, not me-

chan:
LMAO, i'll definitely blame the group
but, it's just terrifying
like, yeah i kind of want something more with woojin, but it's just stressful thinking about "what if we don't work"

soojin:
i know it's hard to do, but don't think of anything but the now of the relationship and enjoy your time with him. if you think too much of the future and keep filling your head with "they're just gonna leave me" then it's obviously gonna fuck with you and make you feel like they'll definitely leave you, and that's not okay.
like of course we don't know their intentions, but just enjoy the time while you have it and try not to overwhelm yourself in that situation