Human interaction.
It seems simple but never is.
Is it normal, that
When left alone I shake at your face?
I can't look into your eyes,
The truth makes me sick.
Is it normal that every time
I visit the hall I worry whether
I'm sitting walking looking right?
Am I the only one
Who tenses with a touch,
Accidental or not?
I seem fine but inside I'm dying.
Everyone around is a threat.
Do they see the red from
Too many layers of foundation?
Do they see the bags under my eyes
and the weight that they carry?
I've coughed twice - everyone must be staring.
Everything overanalyzed and criticized.
I want to be able to touch someone's arm
Without freezing up.
To look in someone's eyes without fear.
To have an actual conversation
To lay my head on their shoulder
Without it shaking.
Instead I let myself freeze up.
Can anyone tell I'm trying?
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Up Too Late
Poetry//Hopefully// my best poetry, random stuff from times I can't sleep and need to leave my mess of a mind