(Jay's POV)
How could he possibly understand? But I felt so much better in his arms. I ran my fingers up his spine making him shiver as I laughed at him. As I separate from Nathan I notice the wet stream running down his perfectly structured cheek. I'm in love with my best friend way more than I'll ever be with any woman in the world. But I knew he wouldn't feel the same, would he? He has always been reserved, unsure of himself, and oh I don't know, straight! The ultimate cock-blocker, I think bitterly. He had still been holding my shoulders but has now let go as if reading my mind and it's gay, Nathan-loving thoughts.
"I don't understand, why?" he asked shaking his head. I opened my mouth ready to lie but couldn't bring myself to do it.
"Jay, you can tell me anything. I'll never judge you." he said in a hurt tone. I knew he would accept my embarrassing, ridiculous feelings for him but would he feel something too? God, stop this Jay. I can't lead myself on thinking he might actually have feelings for me and then get hurt. I just need to lie. Everyone would be better off if I just lied. But there's no band I could break up now. Just a career. I sigh and lean against the wall facing the toilet.
"I know but I'm just worried about what might happen." I said too much. Now he'll just assume I'm gay. What else could I be. Dating! I'll just say I'm dating someone.
"Damn it Jay! Just tell what it is already!" Nathan yells.
"I have a girlfriend" I say.
"Oh" Nathan starts as if he's disappointed. There's that hope again.
"Um, what's her name?" he asks. Damn you Nathan, first you steal my heart now your gonna catch me and my lies.
"Bea, short for Beatrice." I say thinking back to watching Divergent. The mates would be so proud that I'd watched a film that wasn't Avatar, if it weren't for the fact that I'm using my new knowledge for lying.I'm clearly not a Candor.
"Oh, well I don't see why that is such a big deal." Nathan says, using the same tone he does when I steal his phone and he knows it. I smile and for a second I see a look of disappointment in his deep green eyes. And that's when I lose control.
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The Band Broke Up (First Book in The Jaythan Series)
FanfictionJay has been Gay for about a year now and he can't stop thinking about his bandmate Nathan Sykes. Unfortunately Nathan's straight and the band, The WANTED, has finished there very last concert. Can Jay tell his biggest secret to Nathan? What would N...
