Torn

Chapter 8- Moments.

Previously;

If I lay here, if I just lay here,

will you lie with me and just forget the world?"  

I sang to her, trying to hold back the tears about to burst out of me. I looked at her beautiful, but pale face, to see a faint move in her mouth, attempting a smile. My eyes filled with joy, but were soon destroyed but the sound of the heart monitor, showing that her heart had gone flatlined.  

 Chapter 8- Moments

*Zayn's p.o.v*

Days had passed, but it felt like years. It felt like a million years, and my life was over. It is over. Here I am, standing all in black, making a speech to Delilah,  who wouldn't hear it. Who wouldn't hear anything, ever again. Who wouldn't see anything, ever again. Who would never touch, or feel anything ever again. Who would never live her life, because it was ripped from her. 

I stood infront of a wooden post thing, and pulled out my small piece of paper that was stained of my tears.  I could feel all eyes on me, so I began to speak; attempting not to cry.

"I didn't know Delilah for very long, but she stole my heart. With the way she covered her mouth with her hand when she laughed because she was insecure of her teeth, the way she got so excited anytime we'd watch Finding Nemo, the way she'd always try to rap Nicki Manaj's songs on the radio mumbling the words, the way she bit the insides of her cheeks whenever she got nervous. The way she did everything. Everything about her was so... so gentle, but if you got her to laugh, she'd never stop. She  hated her laugh, but it made my day hearing it. She was such a beautiful girl, flawless actually; inside and out. Her blue eyes always showed her emotions, whether they were lit up with happiness or they were a clouded blue, showing fear or that she was confused. I loved her, with every part of my heart. I would've done anything and everything for her. She was my world. She still is, even though she isn't here, with us. I don't believe in god, or reincarnation, or heaven or hell. But if she is up there looking down at me, this is for you my baby. I wrote it for just for you." 

I walked over to the piano, and placed my hands on the keys. My fingers were numb, and my heart ached for her to sit next to me while I played. I pressed down on the first key, letting the sound ring through the room. 

( http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Xpayz9bYivs&feature=related The song is Moments by One Direction, all rights to them!  I do not, in anyway own one direction....unfortunatly.. But carry on)

"Shut the door,

Turn the light off

I wanna be with you,

I wanna feel your love

I wanna lay beside you,

I cannot hide this

Even though I try

Heart beats harder,

Time escapes me

Trembling hands touch skin,

It makes this harder,

And the tears stream down my face

If we could only have this life for one more day

If we could only turn back time

You know I'll be your life,

Your voice,

Your reason to be,

My love, my heart

Is breathing for this

Moment in time

I'll find the words to say

Before you leave me today

Close the door,

Throw the key,

Don't wanna be reminded,

Don't wanna be seen,

Don't wanna be without you

My judgement's clouded,

Like tonights night sky

And a silent,

Voice is numb,

Trying to scream out my lungs,

It makes this harder,

And the tears stream down my face

If we could only have this life for one more day

If we could only turn back time

You know I'll be your life,

Your voice,

Your reason to be

My love, my heart,

Is breathing for this

Moment in time

I'll find the words to say,

Before you leave me today

Flashing lights in my mind,

Goin' back to the time

Playin' games in the street,

Kickin' balls with my feet

There's a numb in my toes,

Standing close to the edge

There's a pile of my clothes

At the end of your bed

As I feel myself fall,

Make a joke of it all

You know I'll be

Your life, your voice your reason to be

My love, my heart

Is breathing for this

Moment in time

I'll find the words to say

Before you leave me today

You know I'll be,

Your life, your voice your reason to be

My love, my heart,

Is breathing for this

Moment in time

I'll find the words to say

before you leave me today..."

My voice cracked slightly throughout the song as I tried to hold the tears back that were urging to rush out of me. It was over... She was gone. What could I do? Cry. And cry... And cry. She was never coming back. It wasn't possible. It also wasn't fair. She didn't deserve this. She didn't deserve it. But it happened... and it will never be undone...

The audience clapped quietly for me, as I went back the podium.

"I hate having to speak in past tense about you... I wish you were right here next to me, not making me say what you were but what you are. But I can't change what happened, no matter what I do. As hard as reality is, I'm not going to tell myself lies about how you're coming back to here, because you're really gone... But Delilah, the moments I had with you were the moments I'll never ever forget. Ever. And nor will I ever forget you, and how perfect you truely were, and still are even though you aren't with us."  

Folding the small paper, I put it in my pocket.  No, the paper wasn't my speech. It was the inspiration for my speech, a printed picture of Delilah and I on prom night.  I went back to my seat, and went through the rest of the funeral, missing my baby that I'd never hold again. What was I going to do with my life? She was my life. So basically, I have no reason to live anymore. 

A/N: LETTING EVERYONE KNOW; THE STORY IS NOT OVER YET! There's still more I have instore for you guys. xx