texts ↣ shawmila

nineteen.

[camila]
11:26 pm
im really fucking sorry
that i keep coming off as rude.
i promise it's not my
intention.

[shawn]
11:28 pm
and i already told you not
to worry about it.

[shawn]
11:29 pm
and besides, i'm worried about
you. how we met is not how most
people meet.

[camila]
11:31 pm
would you please forget
about that?

[shawn]
11:32 pm
i'm sorry i can't forget
getting a text from a stranger
telling me they're gonna kill
themselves.

[camila]
11:33 pm
i told you i was drunk.

[shawn]
11:34 pm
and why were you drunk?

[camila]
11:35 pm
jesus fucking christ.

[camila]
11:36 pm
i really don't feel like
telling someone on the internet
about my issues.

[shawn]
11:38 pm
im sorry.

[shawn]
11:38 pm
i didn't realize how aggressive
this was getting. i truly am sorry.

[camila]
11:40 pm
don't worry about it.

[shawn]
11:41 pm
i really am sorry. i don't know how
any of this could affect you and i said
this without thinking.

[camila]
11:43 pm
it's okay. it was good to be
treated normally for once.

[shawn]
11:45 pm
for once? what does that mean?

[camila]
11:46 pm
that no one sees me as human
anymore. it's fucking annoying.

[shawn]
11:47 pm
and that's because...?

[camila]
11:48 pm
that some shit happened and it
ruined my life and no one sees me
as me anymore.

[camila]
11:49 pm
and i really needed someone to
treat me like they're not walking
on glass. so thank you.

[shawn]
11:50 pm
i understand. im sorry if you felt
like i was treating you like less.

[shawn]
11:50 pm
and i'm here to talk if you need to.

[camila]
11:51 pm
thank you.

[shawn]
11:52 pm
soooo going back to the fact
that you write music.....

[shawn]
11:52 pm
😏

[camila]
11:53 pm
okay you got me, i like
to write music

[shawn]
11:54 pm
i'll show you something if you
show me something 😏

[camila]
11:54 pm
nope.

[shawn]
11:55 pm
please! it could be a bonding
moment!

[camila]
11:56 pm
my songs are very personal
to me.

[shawn]
11:57 pm
and i understand that. i won't ask
for details on it , just wanna hear it :(

[shawn]
11:57 pm
but if you don't want to it's okay. i'll
share mine anyway:)

[shawn]
11:58 pm

screenshot from my notes :)

[camila]
12:00 am
wow.

[camila]
12:01 am
who hurt you?

[shawn]
12:02 am
just a relationship i fought so hard
for and i realized there was no way
we were gonna work out. i was just a bit
hung up over it and 'Perfectly Wrong'
happened.

[shawn]
12:03 am
but i'm over it. (finally LOL)

[camila]
12:04 am
here is 'Consequences'. probably
the one that explains my experience
the best and the most raw one.

[camila]
12:05 am

do not show this to anyone
istg.

[shawn]
12:07 am
holy shit

[shawn]
12:08 am
are you okay?

[shawn]
12:08 am
what the hell happened to you?

[shawn]
12:09 am
that's a little scary honestly. im
worried.

[camila]
12:10 am
i wrote this as a way to
understand and get over
what happened.

[shawn]
12:11 am
i hope someday you'll tell me
what happened.

[camila]
12:12 am
me too.