texts ↣ shawmila

thirty.

[shawn]
2:03 pm
i want to share another song:D

[camila]
2:03 pm
go for it

[shawn]
2:04 pm
wait can i share a video of me instead:p

[camila]
2:05 pm
yeah that's fine

[shawn]
2:05 pm
yeee

[shawn]
2:05 pm

[shawn]
2:05 pm
just a voice memo of this song, where were you in the morning:-)

[shawn]
2:06 pm
there was a point where i'd sleep around a lot trying to feel something and i thought this girl and i felt a connection and she wasn't there in the morning which sucked, just showed i need genuine connections besides sex before relationships:)

[camila]
2:09 pm
holy shit it's amazing!

[camila]
2:09 pm
did you record this at a studio?

[shawn]
2:10 pm
thank u! :D

[shawn]
2:10 pm
and no, i have this small studio-like setup in my apartment so i used that :p

[camila]
2:11 pm
that's actually amazing.

[camila]
2:11 pm
now i feel obligated to show you something of mine.

[shawn]
2:12 pm
you don't have to! but i would not be opposed to the idea;)

[camila]
2:13 pm
maybe not a video just yet but i'll send something

[camila]
2:13 pm
here's a pic taken by my sister of me writing a few days ago

[camila]
2:13 pm

[shawn]
2:14 pm
you're really close to your sister eh?

[camila]
2:15 pm
i forgot you were canadian ://

[shawn]
2:15 pm
ok whatever.

[shawn]
2:16 pm
pic:D

[shawn]
2:16 pm

[shawn]
2:16 pm
baby me and baby sister 8)

[camila]
2:17 pm
that's adorable.

[camila]
2:17 pm
can i ask you something?

[shawn]
2:18 pm
yeah, go for it:)

[camila]
2:19 pm
shit happened a while back, hence the drunk texts i guess and i don't know why i trust you so much, i guess it's just easier to trust some stranger on the internet than someone i've known for years if that makes sense. would you mind if i like, talked to you about what happened?

[camila]
2:20 pm
never mind, forget it. that was stupid i'm sorry.

[shawn]
2:20 pm
no it's okay! i understand that it's easier to talk to people when you've got nothing to lose. i don't mind, in all honesty i'm quite worried and i'm here for you in any way.

[shawn]
2:21 pm
if you want to give me full detail whatever happened and whatever you're feeling, or just give the bits and pieces you're processing each day, i don't care babe. i want you to be okay and safe.

[shawn]
2:22 pm
it's fucking terrifying getting a message from someone you don't know saying they want to die, but getting the same message after you have gotten to know them is even scarier. i want to help in any way i can, i'm serious.

[shawn]
2:22 pm
i'm sorry for my little rant, but seriously i've gotten so attached in such little time it's terrifying. i want only the best for you.

[camila]
2:23 pm
thank you. for caring and being so genuine and kind and you.

[camila]
2:23 pm
i don't know if any topics will make you uncomfortable.

[shawn]
2:24 pm
no, you're fine. talk to me babe, whenever you're ready.

[camila]
2:25 pm
i don't want you to think of me badly, you probably have a certain image of me and i don't want to ruin that.

[shawn]
2:25 pm
i do have an image of you in my head that nothing will ruin:)

[camila]
2:26 pm
don't be so sure of that please.

[camila]
2:26 pm
not many people know about this, and i've never told
them in detail. i just need to get it all out.

[shawn]
2:27 pm
that's what i'm here for:) whenever you're ready babe.

a/n i thought i published this ages ago LOLL