Silence Hidden In Words

45

You walked right past me.

I was trembling as if it was from fear.

Maybe it was..because I was afraid of losing you.

A person who took my differences and told me they looked beautiful.

Someone who took my cloudy days, and turned them into sunshine.

I didn't want us to leave,

Like this.

The words I wanted to say,

were stuck in my mouth.

Weighing down my confidence,

like rocks.

I was slowly sinking

into this imaginary black hole

of mine.

Sinking to the bottom.

Drowning.

As much as I wanted to succumb

to the fear, I remembered what she told me.

"I just want to let you know..it's okay."

"..To be scared."

"But it doesn't make you weak."

The words floated back in my mind,

Slowly, vividly, remembering the memory.

I tried to focus on that,

instead of the fear that I felt.

Before I could stop myself.

"wait"

The first word, that I ever said to him.

Barely a word, more a whisper.

Barely audible, barely noticeable.

He kept on walking.

Unable to hear me.

Taking a deep breath.

"Wait!"

All I could hear was the impeccable silence.

Looking back, I watched as he stopped.

He didn't turn around.

Those grueling seconds turned into minutes,

which seemed like forever

until he finally....turned around.

Those striking blue eyes looked at mine.

From a expression of pure curiosity, and atoshionment,

then came a warm smile.

And in that moment,

I trusted you.

More than anyone else.

And that was enough.