Tododeku angst

Chapter 2

(I should've warned you at the beginning of the book, but curse words! Like, almost everywhere!)

I woke slowly to heat all around me. My mind felt awful, and I felt so uncomfortable in my head, so I focused on the warmth. I squeezed my eyes shut and gripped Todoroki's hands. I bit my lip until I tasted blood. I felt tears building up behind my eyes, but I couldn't get up because Todoroki was holding me to tight, and I really didn't want to wake him. I felt his face nuzzle into the back of my neck.

"You okay?" He mumbled. Shoot, I woke him up.

"I'm fine, just need to go to the bathroom." Todoroki responded by hugging me tighter.

"Sho-chan~! Lemme go~!" Todoroki groaned at me. When I felt his breaths even out against me, I extracted myself from him. He curled in on himself. I felt almost bad, but I needed to be alone.

I stumbled to the bathroom and shut and locked the door behind me. I sank to the floor, my breathes uneven. I grabbed and pulled my hair. This couldn't happen now... I just became my crush's boyfriend! We were cuddling less than a minute ago! I should be happy. Tears started to pour out my eyes. I couldn't shake this. I couldn't. Before I realized what I was doing, I reached under the bathroom sink for the knife. I couldn't do to much damage, I didn't want Todoroki noticing it, but I needed this now. I needed to hurt, because I...

I hissed in pain at the first cut. It stung, but it was working. I made another. One more and I would be done...

I put bandages on my fresh cuts, and went back out into my room. On my bed Todoroki had star fished in his sleep. I sighed. I crawled over him, trying to find a big enough space for me to curl up, when suddenly he shot up into a sitting position. The unfortunate thing, I was in a position that when he got up, put me in a rather suggestive position. My legs were on either side of his legs, my butt was sticking out slight farther than the rest of my body. I curved inwards, towards Todoroki, and had my arms on either side of his torso. It took him a moment to get his bearings, but when he did he smirked at my compromising position.

"It's a little early for this Izu-chan~" He cooed. I flushed a bright red, and tried to get off of him, but he wrapped his arms around me waist, pulling me closer. He pulled me into a hug, nuzzling into my neck. This is okay.

Then suddenly he shifted, making me move to. This pulled my sleeve up enough to see my fresh bandages. I couldn't move to cover them or he would get suspicious, but I couldn't leave them like that or he was going to see eventually. Then I felt something. A weird texture that was both warm and wet was on my neck. Todoroki's licking me!? As soon as I had the suspicion, Todoroki confirmed it. He drew his tongue along my shoulder and onto my neck.

"Wha... What are you doing Sho-chan?" I asked, sort of panicked now. I could feel my face grow warmer as Todoroki's tongue did little swirls on my neck.

Todoroki planted a soft kiss on my neck then pulled away. My neck felt almost cold without him nuzzling there. He smiled sweetly, like he didn't just do something entirely to suggestive.

"What do you want for breakfast?" He asked. I swiftly glanced at my arms again before answering.

"Let's go to a cafe!" I exclaimed. Todoroki laughed. He then went to pick up my wrists to get off of him, but I knew what that would mean. Before he could though, I pulled back, managing to cover my hands with my sleeves. I must have looked nervous because a look of concern flashed across his face.

"You okay?"

"Fine fine!!" I half yelled, hopping off of him. I stood up, pulling my sleeves down again, but before I could walk away, Todoroki's hands closed around my wrists. His waist was pressed against my butt, and he leaned over me, right by my ear.