ink and stars

CH. 17

I went back down to my apartment and dressed myself into a black shirt and black Jean shorts then drove for four hours outside of town and went into and unfamiliar bar where ordered me three shots. I necked them all quickly before I pulled out a cigarette and my lighter

I couldn't help but remember the warmth radiating off of his body,

I put it into my mouth and lit it up

My body filling up with need for him to be inside me,

I took a long drag

"What is it you want luna"

I blew out the smoke and swore at the memories

"Guy troubles?" A male voice said from beside me

I looked to my left where I saw a guy in a black leather jacket and black jeans, his light brown hair cut short, he was holding a glass of beer in his hand, three shots waiting for him on the glass bar bench.

I took another drag then blew it out "I guess so... Girl troubles" I said once again looking at his alcohol, he nodded.

I took another drag then blew it out before looking at him "wanna fuck" he looked at me with a smirk "straight forward"

"Do you or don't you"

"Come on then" he said standing up and necking the three shots

I got off my own stool and put out my cigarette, leaving it in the ash tray that was on the bench, the stranger put his hand on the back of my waist and lead me through the small crowd of people to some stairs that lead above the bar, I didn't question it though.

He pulled out some keys when we got to a hall of apartments, he unlocked the second one, I stepped in and when the stranger stepped in and closed the door I pushed him up against it and kissed him hard he kissed back with the same force, pulling my right leg up to his hip, I pushed our bodies closer, he suddenly picked me up making me hook my legs around his waist, he squeezed my arse and turned us around so I was the one up against the door, I pulled away for air "bed" I breathed out

I kissed his neck as he lead us to a room where he laid us on the bed, and pulled off my shirt kissing me down till he was on my core. My afternoon was spent rolling around in sheets, kissing and climaxing. When we were finished the stranger got up and went into a connected room which I found out was a bathroom when I heard him turn the shower on

I picked up my undergarments and quickly put them on before I chucked on my shirt and shorts, i sat on the bed and put my shoes on before I walked out of the room, apartment, then the bar.

I walked to where my car was parked, and when I sat down in my car Elliots smiling face flashed before my eyes making my chest tighten and my throat dry up, I punched the dashboard then looked up at the roof of my car "you always fuck people Luna, what's different this time" I said aloud

There was a part of me that knew the answer why, then there was a part of me that didn't want to admit that there could be a new weakness in me.

I quickly pulled out a cigarette and lighter, I lit it up and started the car, quickly I turned up the music on the radio and sped off while taking a long drag. I got back into town in three hours, instead of going to the cover apartment I went back to where I actually lived, I suddenly stopped the car then hopped out and slammed my door shut I walked into the house then past the dining room where my mama was drinking

"Luna! Luna. Luna" she called but I ignored her and walked upstairs where I walked into my room then slammed my door shut I quickly pulled my clothes off and walked into the bathroom where I got into the shower stall and turned on the hot water, standing there I could now feel the guilt that I was trying to keep away.