CHANCES OF FATE: Simon Marcos (COMPLETED)

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What happened to my life creeps the hell ut of me. I don't have any idea why it happened. Sunod-sunod ang lahat ng nangyari. Nawala si Mommy at Daddy, nalugi ang mga negosyo namin. My business also closed. All wasn't expected. Though, somehow I believe there are certain reasons why it happened.

That's what I'm holding on. The reasons, ayoko ko kasing masisi ang ibang tao dahil mali naman iyon. It's not right to blame others for the circumstances that has been fated.

Now I learned to move on and flow with life because that's the right thing to do. Still here in New York, I work in fashion magazine as one of their styles. Iyon lang naman kasi ang trabaho na pwede kong pasukan sa ngayon. Other jobs are worst and not in line with me. Sayang lang din naman ang natapos ko kung iyon ang papatulan ko but, I need to work hard to sustain Sera. Anna still stay with me, and she also work in other company. We work together to put up our basic needs.

For months para rin akong nakatali lang. Bahay at trabaho lang ang punta ko. I barely talk to anyone. I found that my only cousin went here pero she never contacted me I bet she knew, they knew what happened to the last resort that I have but they never came to help na kung tutuusin sila dapat ang dadamay sa akin dahil pamilya ko sila.

Now I consider my self alone, fighting this battle alone. Hindi na ako nakikibalita sa Pilipinas pwera na lang kung tungkol iyon sa mga problema na naiwan doon. Yun lang ang mmay pakialam ako because I aside from that I don't care anymore. I feel like everyone betrayed me. No one cares and they like to see me like this. Well, now I can say I don't need them I rise and let them see that they can't bring Sapphira Dominique Lazuriaga Javellana down!

" You really want this?" tanong ni Anna ng maabutan akong gising pa rin dahil sa trabaho. I'm bsuy doing my job. Pagkatapos kung patulugin si Sera ay bumalik lang ako sa trabaho.

"I can see that you just eaten a sandwhich at hindi mo pa ubos," puna niya sabay tingin sa platito ko na may lamang sandwhich na dalawang beses ko lang atang kinagatan.

"I'm fine Anna, No need to rant about my routine. I'm used to this. I like what I'm doing." I rebutted.

I saw how she rolled her eyes on me. Iniwan niya ako at nag tungo sa kusina para ilagay ang pinamili. Pero kahit nilisan niya ang tabi ko ay dinig ko pa din ang walang awat na talak niya sa akin. Napailing na lang ako at pinag patuloy ang ginagawa. I don't want a bad vibes. I know concern lang si Anna sa akin but sometimes she act to much.

"You're doing the style for next collection? Seryoso ka ba talaga! Give your self a time Sapphie! I know madaming nangyari and mahirap tanggapin ang mga iyon but you need to atleast unwind hindi yong halos magpakamatay ka diyan sa trabaho mo. I have a stable work and you also do our income is not much as we have before pero okay na tayo dito. nakakaluwag na tayo. Go for vacation or treat your self hindi yong buong araw dito ka lang or sa opisina nyo nagkakape at nakatunganga sa laptop mo na akala mo naman napag-iwan na ng mundo. The world is moving and you should go with it no matter how hard you went through. Learn to find some happiness in the disasters you've been through, I know you can't buy it pero ikaw sa sarili moa lam kung ano ang makakapagpasaya sayo."

Napatigil ako sa ginagawa at tinginan ng maigi si Anna. May punto siya but the fact that I got so much problem to face in everyday life. I don't think I can find happiness that easy or be happy for awhile? Even at the end of the day babalik lang lahat sa isip ko. Para na rin akong tanga nun. Niloloko ko lang ang sarili ko.

"What I'm doing now, this makes me happy. This makes me forget," I replied.

Umiling siya. "Don't forget everything it is part of life what happened shouldn't be forgotten. You should just move on and live it. Matutulog na ako, take a rest and half some good night sleep too. May anak ka pa. You better take care of your self." Sha said.