Yoongi's POV
Out of nowhere, Jimin bursts into my room and places his arms around me. I hug him back but not with enough strength as I used to have.
y: Jimin what wr-
jm: please i want to stay like this.
I smile but he can't see me as his chest is buried in my face. He slowly climbs in the bed beside me and keeps hugging me.
jm: yoongi i'm so sorry.
y: jimin, please stop apologising all the time.
jm: yoongi-
y: Jimin, please don't make a big fuss about everything, stop blaming everything on your self and apologising all the time.
He sighs and he tightens his grip around me, I squeal.
jm: im so sorry! ah! i did it again, sorry!
I giggle and slowly put my legs over his thigh, Im now facing him while we're still cuddling.
y: so what happened at school today? anything new?
Jimin looks at me and his eyes widen, as if I said something wrong?
y: what? what happened? did i say something?
I run my hands through his hair and stare at him as his eyes still popping out at me.
He sighs and starts to speak.
Jimin's POV
I cant contain my tears and my eyes go watery again.
Jm: y-yoongi. I-I have no money left now. When I paid for your prescription, I didn't use the money that you didn't take. I asked my mom for a l-loan. I owe her $60 by the end of the month, and t-today. T-the principal told me that my scholarship has ended and I'll have to start paying with my own money for school now. A-and I don't know what to do.
I start crying more heavily now, I hug Yoongi so tight, I don't know wether he can make out my words.
Y-yoongi I can't stop apologising becuase- becuase sometimes I feel like I'm ruining your life and mine being in a relationship!
I cover my mouth realising there is no going back from what I've said, my mother's words pressured me too much. I can't believe I just said that. Straight to his face. After all he's done.
Jm: y-yoongi i-I'm-
Yoongi's POV
jm: i-im sorry.
I look at him.
jm: i know, you told me not to apologise but i mean it.
y: wh-what do you mean? are you breaking up with me?!
jm: after i fix everything that's going on then- WHAT NO! I DIDNT MEAN THAT.
y: but you seem like you want to, i understand just leave.
Jimin looks at me with sad eyes and see his eyes getting watery.
I move my leg off his thighs and turn around so that I'm not facing him.
jm: y-yoongi i'm sorry i didn't mean to-
y: get out jimin.
jm: yoongi-
y: get out.
I feel his arms around me.
y: jimin, get. the. fuck. out. and take your money with you.
I pick up the envelope from the bedside table beside me and throw it on the floor next to the door. Jimin looks at me and starts to get up from the bed to walk to the door.
He takes a look at me.
His eyes are all red.
jm: yoongi please.
y: you said you wanted this to happen, then get the fuck out!
I look away from him and pull the covers over my face so he won't see me and I won't see him either. My throat feels like there's something inside and I start to cough while tears flow down my face onto the mattress.
Jimin's POV
I leave the room and see that I'm already late to school, I wasn't planning on going back. Not before and not now. I refuse to take a break. I won't. I can't. It'll crush me till I'm nothing, at least when I was with Yoongi there was something for me to hold on to, but now. I can't just let him go like that.
I sit myself down on the bench outside and sit lifeless facing the wall. I can't cry, I can't scream. I just sit there. It can't be over, I press my ear to the door and hear crying, it crushes my heart more, I just want to go in there and make it better. It's all becuase of money! I only care about my school and if I was doing fine financially, but now that I've lost the one thing that really mattered. There is nothing left, I want to go in there again and lie with him but I'm afraid he'll scream at me again and I can't bear that, the guilt is tearing me in two and my head aches. I try to hold myself back but I can't, I open the door and ignore his screams for me to leave.
Y: I said go! Why are you still here?!
Jm: I know what you mean now. My head was too clouded to realise. The only thing I really need is your love. And I have more than enough. Yoongi I don't care if you hate me, if you want me gone. Just know that I'll be here, I'll wait. And I won't give up on what we have. Ever.
I see a lighter on the table beneath me and I brace myself, I pick up the envelope with the money and hold the lighter beneath it.
Jm: I don't need anything. I only need you.
Y: Jimin please don-
I turn the lighter on and watch the money burn, it falls to the floor and I pat it with my shoe to extinguish it, Yoongi stares at me in shock and I look down.
Yoongi's POV
y: JIMIN, WHY?
He looks at me as he wipes his eyes.
jm: i-im-
y: come here.
He hesitates but comes to me, I hold his hand.
y: Jimin, you shouldn't have done that i wanted to buy a ho- ah, never mind. I love you Jimin, i'm sorry. Please come back and stay with me.
I smile and use the blanket to wipe my wet face, I stare back at Jimin whose staring at the burnt money.
I try to get his attention back at me by swinging his hand around and pulling him closer to me but he keeps staring at the floor.
y: Jimin, please come here.
He finally looks at me.
jm: what did you say you wanted to buy?
y: a h- a..um..it doesn't matter.
He stares at me and raises his eyebrow.
y: I love you Jimin, know that and keep it with you at all times even if you think i hate you, i can't, never. But i just want to know what we're going to do when we go to visit my mother.
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blame it on me | yoonmin
Fanfictiontwo new lovers have a very dangerous relationship. they each protect each other as others hurt them. "it's not your fault but mine." "don't say that, it's not both of our fault."
