I Need You ~ Rusame

Flashback

Warning: Includes Depressing Topics and Self-Harm.

Warning: Includes Sexual Themes.

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Ivan's Pov :

After the incident with Alfred, I stayed by him day and night. I rarely went home and only went one time.  I stayed by Alfred and watched as he got better until eventually, the doctor allowed him to go home.

At this point, my Dad was going to be home from his meeting in Brussels tomorrow. I have no idea what to do, being that Alfred's dad disapproved of our relationship, and my Dad very much so disapproved of our relationship.

It's a good thing Ussr didn't know me and Alf were dating otherwise he would have taken a plane back a beat my ass till I went unconscious. I still wanted to hide my relationship with Alfred from the school, though. 

I have no idea what to do in this situation. I love Alfred, but our fathers disapprove. When Alfred got discharged from the hospital, I walked with him to his house. Canada walked with us but his parents were at the house.

When I and Alfred walked in I could see Arthur and France bickering in their room. Arthur looked over to me with the corner of my eye and gave me a dirty look. I walked with Alfred hand in hand to his room and Canada went onto his phone typing. 

I gestured for Alfred to walk in first and when I walked in behind him I shut the door. Alfred launched himself onto his bed and picked up his phone.

Me: "Want to have a sleepover? Like, can I stay here tonight?"

Alfred's face was filled with glee and he practically threw his phone down.

Alfred: "YESYESYES! That would be great!"

Me: "Cool. Whatcha wanna do?"

Alfred: "Hmm... well.. Movie?"

Me: "Sure! What movie?"

Alfred: "Well, we can decide later, Ruski. I've been in the hospital for three days and need to take a shower. You can play on your phone if you want?"

Me: "You know Alfie, I've been there for three days with you. I think I need a shower too."

Alfred: "Mmk, Ruski. You can come with me."

He walked into his bathroom and I followed. I saw the door had been repaired but you could see where I had hit the door out. It gave me memories of earlier this week when he tried to shoot himself. The thought sent shivers down my body.

He took his shirt off as I shut the door behind me and I could see as he unwrapped his bandages. They went all down both his arms. As he peeled them off it revealed arms mangled with bruises, burns, and cuts.

I couldn't help but hold him tight in a hug before whispering in his ear.

Me: "Never do this again, Alfred. Never. Never cut yourself. Never burn yourself. Never. N-..."

Tears welled up in my eyes and rolled down his shoulders. Alfred's light blue eyes shed ears into my chest. We just stayed there and embraced each other until eventually I pulled back allowing him to get off the wall and continue to unwrap his bandages. I could see him wince a little in emotional and physical pain doing so.

I tried to look away from his arms as he peeled off his bandages but couldn't find myself doing it. I watched heart-broken as he peeled them off. He finished on his right arm and moved to his left arm.

I forced my eyes away and pulled my shirt off. I looked down at the bandages below my wrists, horrified.

Never again.