Finding you (lgbt+)

Finding you 💘

Above is Axel

Above is Trey

Above is Kyle

Finding You

( LGBT+ )

(Prologue)

You know what hurts the most ?
Wanting to be with someone that isn't good for you, loving them even though loving them may hurt you, and loving them unconditionally after they hurt you.
I wanna be with her I really do but it hurts. Everytime she leaves or cheats and leaves me broken. Then comes crawling back and wants to be back with me. It hurts but everyone always says love isn't always easy. But I still continue to let her in time after time. I feel forced into this relationship I know I could tell her no but I don't wanna hurt her though she continues to break me.  She always leaves me for better person that is better looking or has more money than me. She thinks she can make it with them when really she can't. It hurts to love her but the truth is I dont think it's worth it anymore. I'm about to let go of her and let her do her own thing I will find someone better that will love me for me and that will not leave me for someone else. I want someone that will not leave when they feel I am not good enough I want someone that will pick me up when I am down not someone that will be the reason I am down. I will find that person one day.

(The new edition)

I would like to believe I am better now I really would. I left her and now it's just me in this house I am pretty lonely but I am beginning to learn the things she wanted me and used me for. It's some small things but others not so much and I don't really understand why I didn't see these things before. The main things she used me for was my job, my house, and my money. Now that she is gone I am able to focus on myself and some of the things around me. Like now that she is gone I bought a puppy so I am not so lonely, when she was around I could not own a dog because we were never home we were always out somewhere and now I am able to open my home to a new best friend and guard dog. I am now the proud owner of a German Shepard puppy and I will raise him to be my best friend but also protect me when it is needed.

This is my new baby Axel, he is a full blooded German Shepherd and he is about two months old. When I got him you could tell he was mistreated he was covered in dried mud, he had worms bad, and he was very skinny. I've had him for about a month and he is already free of worms, has no fleas, and is already gaining weight. I am very proud of him and the progress he has made. I had picked him up and we went to the store I bought him a doggie bed, food and water dishes, dog food, a collar, a collar tag, a leash, a flea comb, flea and tick conditioner, puppy pads, some dog toys, and deworming medicine. I took him home gave him a bath, gave him food with the medicine in it, and let him dry then I combed the dead fleas out of his fur. After everything he looked beautiful he was fluffy and smelled so good. Now I've had him for a month and he is as healthy as ever. He runs around my home and plays, he is flea and worm free, and he weighs about 10 more pounds than he did when I got him which is not very much but i've had him for a month and that's not bad for the short amount of time I have had him. He sleeps in his doggie bed during the day but at night if I don't let him sleep with me he wines at my bedroom door all night so I keep my door open so he can jump in and out of bed with me. Plus it's kinda nice sleeping with him it's very lonely sleeping alone I was so used to sleeping with someone that it's weird not having something there so now I can sleep with Axel and he enjoys cuddling with me just as much of not more than I do.