Chapter 38

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"Ready?"

I nodded quickly, wincing.

My feet touched the ground and for once they didn't hurt that much.

It felt surprisingly normal.

My face broke into a wide grin.

"I CAN WALK BITCHES!" I screamed at the top of my lungs, starlting my nurse.

"And soon you won't able to talk." She added, eyes still wide.

I shrugged, laughing it off.

I had grown close to my nurse over tha past few weeks. Her name was Faye and she wasn't too much older than me.

She had become my literal best friend. and she kept me sane during these times..

Billie is still in the hospital... Nothing changed. Which is why I couldn't stay.

Not because I didn't care,

But because I cared too much.

It even got so bad that I was asked to leave the hospital and 'seek help' because I broke down again.

Did I get help?

Hell no.

I feel like I hade more strength than ever, like I can do anything.

That is until my knees buckled.

It was as if everything I worked hard for shattered into a million pieces.

I had failed again.

Faye caught me before I fell all the way and she looked up at me. It was as if we were in a movie, she was close, I was close. Probably should have been too close for comfort.

And then...

She leaned in...

This was where I decided how important every decision I made up to this point was. My relationship, friends, everything.

Whether I wanted to risk it all for a spur of the moment mistake.

And I picked the only rational choice.

And I leaned back, curving her smoothly.

She coughed uncomfortably and helped me back to my feet.

I shifted uncomfortably, not wanting to make eye contact. She needs to know what she did wasn't okay.

"Sorry that was unprofessional -"

"It's fine." I interrupted, no longer wanting to speak of the matter.

She knew I had someone, she knew I was in love with Billie and yet she still attempted to make a move on me? Why.

Why did she feel so inclined to ruin the greatest thing that ever happened to me?

My phone rang loudly in my pocket, attracting my attention.

"Hello?" I asked, agitation lacing my tone.

"Ava." It was Cierra's trembling voice.

"What's wrong?" I yelled, urgency now taking over my voice.

"Finneas... I... Just come..." She trailed off, sounding extremely defeated and out of breath.

Her words confused me so much. Is someone in danger? Because if someone was, Cici sucks ass at calling help...

But it sounded like something was just really bothering her.

Guess I'll find out?

"Did you want to go surprise your girlfriend?" She asked, putting emphasis on the word girlfriend, knowing full well who she was talking about.

The question changed my entire demeanor.

"Um shes - uh in a coma right now so..." I trailed off awkwardly.

She feigned a shocked expression.

She knew.

Everyone does.

"Would you like me to wheel you out?"

I nodded slowly, a little bit disappointed with myself.

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Cierra's P.O.V

I paced back and forth, biting my nail and awaiting my visit.

When I finally heard the doorbell I ran to it faster than light.

"I finally got the hang of driving this thing!" She exclaimed excitedly, to which I giggled nervously.

She rolled herself into my house, until I thought of another aspect.

"Wait. How did you get in and out of the car."

Her eyes widened.

And then she did something I wasn't expecting.

She stood up.

"It was supposed to be a surprise.Fae She pouted.

I guffawed.

"You could have done what any normal person would do and called me to ask for help..."

She rolled her eyes and moved to sit on my couch.

"Spill."

I began to hyperventilate.

"Chill dude. Literally just me." She comforted.

"Okay. Time to get a bit serious for a second." I breathed.

Avalon's P.O.V

I looked at her in confusion. There was literally nothing, nothing she could say or do that would deter me now. Unfortunately, I was stuck with her until our death day.

No matter what she told me within the next few seconds I would still love her. I wouldn't even think of thinking of her differently because of it.

Why?

Because I cared and becaus-

"I'm pregnant."

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