E V A N N A
"She's awake!"
I slowly sat up, my whole body aching. IV's we're stuck in my arm, monitors surrounded me. A doctor rushed up to me.
"I'm Dr. May," she said. "How are you feeling?"
Memories rushed back to me.
Suicide attempt.
Jayden.
Jayden...
Tears welled in my eyes. I remembered now. We used to be best friends... We did everything together. How did everything go so wrong?
"It's okay," Dr. May assured. "You only passed out from exhaustion, lack of sleep, and yeah, but how are you feeling? Are you feeling okay?"
I didn't want to talk to anyone. I wanted to be by myself and sort everything out. I had to reprocess everything that happened.
"Evanna, is anything hurting?" She asked again. "It's okay if you don't want to answer right now. But I was informed this was your third suicide attempt, is that correct?"
I didn't want to talk about this. Not right now.
Dr. May gave me a small smile. "A therapist might help you. Do you want to try talking to—"
I shook my head slightly, leaning back against the raised bed. My head shot up as I heard the door being opened.
Ethan rushed in, his eyes wide. "E-Evanna!"
He ran over to me, and I accidentally flinched. I saw hurt flash in his eyes, but what did he expect? And then I started feeling bad again.
"Y-you're awake," He stammered. "How are you feeling? Are you okay? Are you hurt?"
Brandon rushed in too, staring at me in shock. "Evanna..."
"Why would you try... and... and k-kill yourself?" Brandon asked, his voice full of pain. "Evanna, we care about you."
Don't believe them.
You can't trust them now.
They all stabbed you in the back.
They hurt you really badly.
They'll only betray you again.
I looked down, playing with my hands. I didn't want to talk. I couldn't talk. I just didn't want to say anything. It was like something was holding me back.
"J-Jayden?" Ethan muttered into the phone. "Evanna... she's awake— h-hello? J-Jayden?"
Jayden.
My best friend...
Best friends don't treat each other that way.
He abused you. He bullied you. He drove you to kill your self.
But... but he's my best friend. He didn't know.
That doesn't justify his actions. He hated you. Remember all the pain he made you go through?
He put you in the hospital.
He told you to kill yourself.
But he didn't know... if he knew, he wouldn't have done it! And he was in pain too. He was hurt and broken, just like me.
You're hurt and broken because of him.
You're going to forgive him after everything he's done to you?
"Evanna!" I heard Andrew shout as he ran into the room and up to me. "Holy shit, I was so worried!"
He's awake... Andrew woke up from his coma... He's not mad at me.
He ended up in the hospital. Everyone blamed you.
"Are you okay?" Andrew asked.
Ethan and Brandon came closer. I nodded slightly, gripping the edge of the bed.
Alex walked in, looking close to tears. "I'm sorry... I never blamed you. I was... I just couldn't believe what happened, I was in shock!"
He never blamed you?
Well what about the time he slammed you into the hospital cart after finding out Andrew was in a coma?
He was in shock? He didn't bother thinking about you in pain.
And then I saw Daniel appear. He slowly walked to Evanna, staring at her. "H-hey..."
"Give her time," Dr. May smiled. "She's probably just gone through a lot."
"Evanna!" Matthew yelled, running inside. "Wha...What happened? I... I was so worried! The n-note... I saw in my locker... Evanna!"
Andrew stared at him. "Why're you here?"
"Because my friend almost killed herself?" Matthew shot back.
Andrew's eyes widened. "Damn, I'm just asking..."
Matthew came up to me. "E-Evanna... why would you..."
I bit my lip. "S-sorry..."
"D-don't be sorry!" Matthew exclaimed.
"Yeah, why're you sorry?" Andrew said, glaring at Matthew. "Evanna, you didn't do anything—"
Finally, he came.
I saw Jayden at the door, looking like he ran a mile. He was shaking badly too. "E-Evanna..."
Jayden ran up to me and hugged me tightly. "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry... Evvy, I'm so so sorry for everything..."
I stiffened and flinched, but I felt my body relax in his arms. Hot tears rolled down my face.
"Ev, I'm sorry, I'm really sorry," Jayden said, pulling away.
