Strong Yet Scared

Chapter 17

When I open my eyes, I see a moving white object in front of my eyes. Am I dead? Is this what it's like?

My blurred vision starts to brighten and I realize the white object I'm seeing is a ceiling. I move my head slowly to the side, but a stinging thing shoots up and I feel something. I don't know what it is, it makes me want to scream, so I do.

"Charity? Charity!" I hear a boys voice.

I remember it's the same voice I heard before I blacked out. And the same voice I heard when I bumped into someone at the store. It's josh.

"Josh?" I mumble, because this thing is causing me pain.

Wait.

I realize I am getting pulled into a room, I am on a gurney. The three nurses who were around me, run out of the room, to get a doctor I suppose.

"Josh? What... What is this?" I ask.

I remember I never told him about my secret. I don't care, I just want to know if I can feel this or not...

"What is what?" He asks, he goes to take my hand in his, I see his eyes look down, but he decides against it.

When I look down at my hand, I see burn marks. My hand is covered in red cuts, gashes and scabs, and black singed pieces of skin hanging off.

"I need Seth." I don't even bother explaining.

I just need him. I need him to tell me what everything- woah...I am extremely dizzy. My eyes start to shut, my head spinning and I slowly relax all my tense muscles.

•••••

"Is she okay?" I hear Seth's voice.

"Yeah, I think. She is Burnt up really bad, but the doctors said she will be okay, maybe some slight damage in memories." Josh informs him, I hear Seth sigh in relief.

"She said she needed me?" Seth asks, worry clear in his voice.

"Yeah...she kept asking 'what is this'...I don't know what she meant, but she asked for you after and then feel asleep." Josh speaks, I hear sadness.

"Okay, I'm going to sit by her." Seth tells josh.

I can already see josh nodding, even though my eyes are closed.

"I really like her, Seth..." Wait, what?

Josh just said he likes me. As in, josh has feelings for me. As in, he would date me... As in, i would have someone to hold me... Someone to kiss me goodnight...

"Yeah, me too." Seth tells him, whispering like it's a secret.

"What about kendall?" Josh asks, clearly jealous and protective.

"I like kendall ,too, but...charity has gotten even more close to me then kendall has even though we are dating. I feel like kendall and I are just fuck buddies." Seth laughs a little.

Josh laughs and I can picture the small half smirk on his face. "Yeah...I want more then just another fuck buddy."

At this, I decide to open my eyes. I don't want to hear anything else about fucking or fuck buddies.

"Charity!" I hear josh say and smile. He starts to walk over to me, his two hands in both of his front pockets.

"Hey, are you alright?" Seth asks, eyebrows perked up.

"Do you need anything?" Josh asks, ready to leave the room and get whatever I desire.

"Guys, guys, I'm okay...but yeah..josh can you get me a glass of water I'm really thirsty." It's true, I am, plus I want to talk to Seth for a minute.