Scarlet Rain | ON HOLD

05. A Fool

How hypocritical of him when he was the one that hasn't changed. All I saw was still a boy who let the judgements of others overpower his true feelings.

The same person who walked away from me because of those hesitant emotions.

I no longer know who this boy was. The unkept hair that would bounce excitedly every time he nodded in agreement was now replaced by dark, silver locks. It's styled neatly, showcasing his chiseled eyebrows for the world to see.

Jay, or whichever name he goes by now, held a completely different aura to him.

What happened to you?

The occupied sign on the restroom door has yet to switch back to unoccupied. I felt a bit uneasy on why someone would take so long, not to mention no particular sounds can be heard either.

Jay does not say anything else after his accusation. I hope it signaled the end of this discussion, but I carelessly forgot why a knife was still hidden in my clutch.

I speak up. "I take your silence as the conclusion of...this," I gestured my hand between the two of us. "I hope we'll meet again in better circumstances, Jay."

He laughed a humorless tune at my words.

"So that's who you remember me as," he scoffed. "Out of the many other identities, you had to choose the one that I despise."

I pursed my lip, a bit taken back by his sudden outburst. "That's the only identity I've known you as."

Endless explanations on why he has such a dislike for his former identity scurried around in my head. I assumed only one possible answer.

It's because he met me through that identity.

Jay's hard expression softened, soon realizing his mistake. "Jiwook. I'm Jiwook. I haven't been given another name after Jay."

"You went back to the identity where we didn't meet," I nodded at my theorem.

Jiwook nodded in confirmation, his head hung low.

It had always been rare for him to show any form of vulnerability to me, though his eyes always gave it away.

"Vulnerability is a weakness. You are my weakness," he said once. "I don't want to show how weak you can make me."

I blinked the thought away, smiling softly at the man in front of me. "I do have a question, though, Jiwook. Let it be my first and last."

But I couldn't bring myself to query, not until I meet Jungkook's gaze from afar.

"Why?" I asked, eyes still connected to Jungkook's.

"Why do you hate me so much," I disconnected our eyes, "to the point where you have to find me after all these years?"

Jiwook could only stare, blue orbs twirling with an unreadable emotion.

"I was finally left at peace," I spat. "After all that you did."

"I... I don't know," Jiwook's eyebrows furrowed in agony. "I don't know Scarlet. I'm so fucking sorry."

"Sorry," Jungkook mocked, placing a hand on Jiwook's shoulder. "There were more important matters I had to tend."

Like the mile high club. I thought and grimace. Oops. Not appropriate right now.

My anger lessened once I felt tears prickling at the corner of my eyes, and I blinked rapidly to forbid their deluge.

Jungkook gave his foe a squeeze on the shoulder. "I was sure Jiwook wouldn't dare to place a hand on you."

"Jeon Jungkook," Jiwook gritted out. "Good to see you're alive."

"Hey," Jungkook grinned. "How are you little brother?"

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thank you for supporting rain while it lacked updates. i've been focusing on other things and now mainly go on wattpad to read rather than write (don't worry, i'm hopefully back on track now).

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