Learn Ya

Chapter 11: Part I

"I've been here all my life. LA is my home. My mother use to take me to this park everyday after bussing tables all day long because she couldn't afford anything else. The park was on a hill that had the best view of LA. Both the hood and the hills."

I continued to embrace in our comfortable silence. That's one thing about this city, it's beautiful and dark all at the same time. Just like his tattoo.

"Just like .." he started but didnt finish.

He squeezed me tighter and took a deep breath. "Listen..."

"Dontè dont."

I didn't need him to apologize, hiding deep in the swims of liquor, Im pretty sure he did last night.

"Nah. I need to say this. With a clear head. I'm sorry again for not telling you about ya moms. I just.. I just don't want to loose you."

For some reason, I felt those words. I felt like he meant it. I don't know what was different from last night but something changed. 

"I forgive you. Just don't lie to me again."

I kissed his chest to let him know that even though my words came out a tad harsh, I had indeed still forgave him.

And even though I forgave him, I just couldnt forgive myself. I have no idea what I am going to do about my mother but I had to do something. She needed me.  She needed help.

Drowning in my thoughts, I dosed off.

After we had slept for about six more hours, I decided that it was defiantly time for me to wake us up.

Instead of getting ready at the same time, I let him sleep until I did all of my morning routine and hygiene stuff before waking him up. I didnt feel like hearing his complaints.

I got out the shower, wrapped myself and roughly dried my hair with a towel. I grabbed my phone, turning up my 90's playlist and quickly shot Skylar a text about the BBQ.

As soon as I placed my phone down I felt Dontè rap his arms around me and kiss my neck. "Goodmorning beautiful." 

"Goodevening..." Looking at us in the mirror made me think about last night.

He picked me up and put me on the sink. His finger lifted my chin. "Whats wrong?"

I said nothing. I didnt want to be childish. 

"Angelina."

Fuck it.

"Do you regret this." I asked still trying not to look him in his eyes.

"What?"

"Last night?"

"So you remember?" He smiled.

How could I forget, the way his .. stay focused Angelina. Stay focused. 

"After the sex. You stayed. Its in the rulebook, people only stay if they are together, in a relationship or they feel realllyyyy bad. And..." My eyes started tearing up. I cant even begin to think about the reality of him having sympathy sex with me. Pathetic.

"Angel dont. It breaks me to see you cr.. Look at me."

I looked him in his eyes as he smiled at me. 

I wrapped my arms around his neck and he placed me on the ground so I was looking at the both of us again in the mirror.

I watched him kiss my neck.

"I dont regret anything when it comes to you. The only thing I regret.."

My heart stopped. I didn't think I wanna know.