48. Loneliness and The Feeling Behind It

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Silently reminiscing the times I smile genuinely
And the reason how it vanished instantly
Loneliness knocked on my window
And I let it in just to feel sorrow

The feelings it brought me made my eyes watered
The memory of being in someones' arms shattered
I'm all alone in this dark room
In this house I can't even call home

Finding the one that can fill my emptiness
Is like searching a hope in darkness
Waiting for someone else help
Is like waiting a moment to stab yourself

The feeling of no one who can share your pain
The longing to someone slowly eats your sane
How loneliness put this hole on my chest
And how my colorful place turns to gray

I'm just a little kid begging for a little care
I'm just a lonely girl hoping for a little share
Am I that unworthy to be given attention
When all I want is your love and affection

I remembered all too well how colorful my perspective is
And how it turns to black and white when those I love left
I feel unwanted as much as rejected
I feel like a used cloth that they easily discarded

Every sunny days are laced with blue
It's like I'm living because I needed to
I'm living because that's what I should do
And keep living because I had to

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