Guilt Tripping (rant/personal book)

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i'm shockingly not dead ! lmfao

there's too much to catch up on for me to like,,, detail it ?? but i will say i'm in college now n it's stressful

i came on here to check notifications and i saw that coin beta thing ?? and i kinda want to come back if there's a possibility of me getting paid. i know it's only on beta rn (and they've selected only a lil over 40 people to participate) and i'd have to get extremely popular for it to happen when it isn't in beta form anymore, but based on the popularity of my past stories, i don't think this goal is impossible.

however, if i give up writing fanfics and go with straight up stories, it may be more difficult. i feel weird writing fanfictions nowadays, i guess because a. i don't ship those who i used to ship and b. i feel awkward writing about real people (i've never liked anything fictitious that's gotten me hyped up enough to write a fic about it). i have a couple of story ideas though that seem solid, one being something i started during my creative writing class senior year.

this might just be wishful thinking and i might just forget about this in a week, but i just wanted to notify y'all about me being okay and me still loving to write. maybe this is the healthy coping mechanism i need back in my life, i'll never know unless i try it out.

goodbye for now,
taylor x