Just For You.. (Seventeen X Non-Binary Reader)

Chapter 20

I'm with Christian in our room we're both overwhelmed by everything that had happened. The only thing was we didn't know each other's story yet. "Chris I can see something happened talk to me please" "well what can I say you were right" I sat down next to Christian on his bed. "About what was I right?" I held my arm around the boy comforting him pulling him in a sort of hug. "Seungcheol likes me" "oh that.." there was a little silence and I almost didn't dare to ask but I had to. "did he... do something?" "the freak kissed me out of nowhere?! Who does he think he is!! I don't even like him!! And Jihoon doesn't like me I'm hopeless I'll never be happy" "he just kissed you really?! Rude. I wish I could help you with Ji.." Christian didn't let me finish "he tried [y/n] he tried and it didn't work in other words he doesn't like me and he never will" "I know you've told me, but don't you think you should try living forward you'll find someone that will make you happy I'm sure I just hope you can find the trust" Christian remained silent, Christian was a cheerful boy but had some trust issues. The boy just hoped to find happiness and somehow hoped for Jihoon. "hey, it's okay sometimes you get hurt and sometimes there are troubles and sometimes.. you have to hurt someone.." "you sound like you did hurt someone?" I look down and I'm not sure how to tell all this but it seems to distract Christian from everything. "Hansol kissed me as well.. he pretended to be my boyfriend in front of my parents and you know my mom.. he is a good kisser but.. he has feeling and.. I- I don't" Christian's eyes were big "h-he kissed you so cute!!" "Not I did hurt him Christian" "but are you sure you don't like him" Christian has trust issues my problem is that I never really know when I truly like someone in a romantic way it's because I've always been so busy to not try to actually fall in love that I have forgotten how it feels to be in love. I guess I quickly see people as my brothers/sisters and don't really think of more. I sighed, I wouldn't know how to explain this all I just hugged Christian as I softly whispered "we'll never be happy but have each other" there was a knock on the door and Jisoo and Soonyoung carefully opened the door. "are you okay?" Soonyoung sounds worried coming inside carefully. Both of us were about to break down. Jisoo helped me up "let's talk somewhere else okay?" I nod as I follow Jisoo to his room. Soonyoung had taken my place and gently hugged Christian who almost started to cry.

Hansol was crying in his room as well. Seungkwan came to check on him when he heard the other 98 liner come in he quickly moved away his tears trying to be manly like always. "were you crying?" "no" Seungkwan doubts the youngers answer. He sits down next to Hansol on his bed. "what is wrong?" Hansol didn't answer at first he had some trouble controlling his emotions. "I-I kissed someone I-I liked b-but.. I-I-I got r-r-rejected" he was stuttering trying to not let his tears come out in front of the other boy. Seungkwan hugged him "poor boy you look so hurt" Hansol did let one tear escape for some reason he really thought he had a chance. Seungkwan dried his tears once he saw them. "I'm sure you find someone everyone get's their heart broken at least once" "did you" "..yes.." "really?!"Hansol was somehow shocked that the smiling happy Diva Boo even got his heart broken "I'm not here to talk about my broken heart it's about you now" "just tell me if I can hurt whoever hurt you" "why would you?" "because I don't want anyone to take that smile off your face" Seungkwan's heart melted by those words hugging the boy tightly. If only he knew he was the one that broke it.

Everyone got worried about us four since we all four runned off to our rooms when we got home. Jeonghan felt responsible to see how Seungcheol was doing. As mother and father of the group they had to work together to feed their kids so it was important that Seungcheol didn't hurt them or himself. Jeonghan walked into a quite aggressive Seungcheol hating on himself but mostly because he couldn't understand. "can you stop hurting yourself?!" Jeonghan shouted he ran to Seungcheol and stopped him from hitting things around him. Jeonghan knew about Seungcheol's crush on Christian and that he wanted to confess. "please calm down and talk to me!!" mommy Jeonghan's voice did calm Seungcheol down. "I know you're hurt but this is not how to solve it okay?!" Seungcheol calmed down and hugged Jeonghan. "I kissed him, I thought the time was right but he friend zoned me he was so cold" "aaah I see" Jeonghan gave the older boy comfort even though he looked Chan's age right now. "love is such a beautiful yet painful and difficult subject it will get all of us hurt sometimes" Seungcheol agreed with the mother figure, he shouldn't let his anger affect the younger ones. Love is difficult in the end he wanted Christian to be happy but he just knew Jihoon wasn't the one that's what made him so angry. "what is still on your mind? Explain to me Coupsie" Seungcheol had taken a deep breath and shouted out loud to release his anger "WHY WON'T HE LOVE ME?! WHAT DOES JIHOON HAVE THAT I DON'T HAVE WHEN THAT BOY DOESN'T EVEN LIKE HIM" Jeonghan was shocked by Seungcheol's release of anger, in fact it was so loud everyone heard it even Christian who was in his own room with Soonyoung getting even more hurt because of these words. Thank god Soonyoung was there to comfort the smaller boy and drying his tears.