A better life (R5 fan fiction)

chapter 7 the words you say

a better life

chapter 6

Emma POV

for the past week I have stayed in my room

I have not gone to school

I have not see Reece

I have not seen my cousin or even my brothers or sisters

I only come out my room to get my dinner which dads make me go

I don't want to eat

I don't want to do anything

the fact is in too embarrassed too

I mean I tried to kill my self

and failed but that's a good

I thought about it

I don't wanna die at this age

but I'm still felling down and depressed and I feel like I need to cut mysel

after I came out the hospital I got more nasty messages

I can't hold it in anymore

i dont  want to  hurt anymore

I want to feel better

I want to  feel goo

i want to lose the pain

everyday I get more and more tweets

not nice ones

horrible

I feel horrible

I feel pain

I need to let the pain go

i go into the bathroom

I grab my razor

smash it until its broke

i pick one on the blazes up. with my left hand

I hold my right arm out

I then move  the blaze to my skin and press it. down and guide it a lot my wrist

I do this again and again until I have 3 cuts on my  wrist

I hide the blaze and clean my arm up before. putting a long sleeve tee shirt on

I go to my ware doove and pull my guitar out

I sit on my bed and play the song I wrote a few days ago

its called the words you say.  (A/N I wrote this song) 

the words you say

are like knifes

stabbing  me each and every time

in my heart

the words you say

hurt me

the things you do

hurt me

Inside and out

people say these words