I'm Here to Fix You - Broken Souls Series #2

Time to change my testament

BOOK 4

CHAPTER 11 - TIME TO CHANGE MY TESTAMENT

SILVIA

"You look nervous." Tess pointed out in an empty voice.

I fixed my makeup a fifth time, and took a deep breath. "I know my life is a mess, but it's not of every day that you go all the way to a federal prison in North Carolina in order to tell your ex-boyfriend that you're pregnant and he's the father."

"Is that why you're all dressed up?" She scoffed. "You never wear dresses. Last time was ..." she trailed off, "it was a long time ago."

I frowned, confused, and turned to look at her. She seemed pensive, or rather, conflicted. Inhaling deeply, I walked over to her, and placed my hands over her shoulders, so that she looked into my eyes. "I know we've been on the rocks lately, and that this whole ... amnesia drama has put a huge strain on our friendship, but I want you to know that, I appreciate everything you do for me."

"You don't listen, though." She scoffed, turning away.

I cracked a small, bittersweet smile. "I appreciate it even if I disagree."

"Sissy, it's not about amnesia," she pulled back, sighing, "it's ..."

"Jake?"

"Well, yeah." She dropped onto the bed.

"Tess, come on, not this again ..." I went to stand before her. "You know what I think. Besides," I rubbed my belly, cracking a bittersweet smile, "it's a little too late, don't you think?"

"The world is plenty of single mothers." She scoffed.

"But I don't want to be one." I admitted. "To be honest, I don't even know whether I want to be mother or not, probably not, but ... it's here now, needless to cry over spilt milk." I chuckled. "I mean, do I wish he'd used a condom? Yes. Do I regret what we did? Well ..." I bit my lips, "not really."

"Even though you cheated on Joe."

"I know, it was awful. But ..." I sat on the bed, beside her, "as crazy as it sounds, that night with Jake was the one glimmer of light that seemed to open the door to what I want the most."

"Really, Sissy, you of all people say mushy things like that?" Tess rolled her eyes, grumpy.

I chuckled, leaving my head on her forehead. "I didn't mean it like that. I meant that it was ... revealing." I pulled back, sighing. I should have told her this way sooner, but I was so caught up in the whole prison drama and we've been fighting so much that, well, Tess and I haven't had much time for a heart-to-heart. "Tess, I remembered."

Her eyes widened and she gasped. "What?"

"It's totally bonkers, I know, but ... being with Jake, that night, it triggered the one memory I didn't even prioritize. My first time."

"You're kidding ..."

"No, really ... I've spent all this time trying to take it rationally, thinking that if I was told things, then maybe they would ring a bell, and ... poof, I'd get my memories back." I curled my lips, thinking of what happened with Jake that time at the beach house. "But now I realize, it's not about theory, it's about practice."

"Oh, so having sex with your ex serves to give you your memories back." Tess scoffed. "Really, of all the excuses to fall back, that is the most absurd one I've ever heard."

"Tess, this whole conundrum is absurd. None of this makes sense." I bit my lips. "Not to me, at least."

"Sissy ..."