back to me ; [chanbaek]

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Napaupo ako sa sahig after closing the door. dito sa office ko sa hospital. I even waved Chanyeol goodbye dahil pupunta na daw siya sa trabaho niya.  I DON'T KNOW WHY MY HEART IS BEATING FAST.

Nababaliw na ako. Bakit ba ako ginaganito ni Chanyeol?

I sighed and closed my eyes. Naalala ko na naman yung mga sinabi ni Chanyeol kanina nung nasa kotse kami.

"I know I'm seven years too late to regret, but I regret every hurtful words I ever said to you." he leaned closer. "I'm sorry Baekhyun."

"Please, Baek. This time, I'll make it right, seryoso ako, I'm serious when I told you I want you back, please. Just. Give me a chance, a one last chance to prove it to you. Mahal kita, Baekhyun..." 

Chance?

Sobrang conflicted na ako. Alam ko naka move on na ako. Alam ko talaga sa sarili ko na ayoko na. Pero bakit ganito ang nararamdaman ko ngayon?

For the past 7 years I did everything para maka move on. I don't want to be part of Chanyeol's life ever again. Ayoko na ulit masaktan.... But why? Why do I feel like this?

Why do I feel like I'm falling for him all over again?

"Baek?" Napalingon ako nang marinig 'kong may tumawag sa pangalan ko.

It was Daehyun. Tumayo naman ako kaagad.

"Hey," bati ko sakanya. "What brought you here?" I asked.

"Hahaha, Baek? Nakalimutan mo na ba?"

I gave him a questioning look. Ang alin??

"Huh?"

"I own this hospital Baek." ay... "and I wanted to see how my favorite doctor is doing!" He said, giving me a full smile. Napangiti naman ako.

"Loko ka talaga." I said.

"Well anyway, gusto ko rin na kamustahin ka at si Jesper."

"Oh we're fine." I said. Bigla naman siyang lumapit sakin at niyakap ako na ikinagulat ko. Omygosh. "D-dae?"

"Baekhyun..." I felt him burying his face sa leeg ko. 

"U-uh?"

"I saw you and Chanyeol kanina." Nakita niya? "He sent you here? Are you guys okay now?" Hindi ko naman alam ang isasagot ko sakanya.

"Uhm.."

"Did he sign the divorce papers?"

Hindi naman ako makasagot. I haven't given Chanyeol the newest papers. Feeling ko din naman susunugin niya ulit. Hindi ko rin alam kung paano ko ibibigay dahil purisigido siya na hindi niya pipirmahan. Inuulit ulit niya sakin na babawi siya. I can't understand him anymore. Hindi ko na rin alam ang gagawin ko. 

I was so sure na kaya ako bumalik dito ay dahil sa divorce. 

But Chanyeol is making it all hard for me.

"Baek"

"Huh?" I snapped out of my trance.

"Are you okay? Kumain ka ba ng breakfast?" I nodded. "Are you sure you're okay? Parang hindi kasi."

"U-uhm," pati pala si Daehyun napapansin ang pagkabalisa ko. I smiled and shrugged it off. "I'm okay, anyways let's go back to work? Maraming kailangan asikasuhin dito sa hospital. We shouldn't really be chatting here you know." I said and he gave me an eyesmile and ruffled my hair. Sinamaan ko naman siya ng tingin, how dare him!