I'm In love with a Monster

Kabanata 21

Kabanata 21

I angrily wiped the tears that's streaming down my face. I'm so furious. Galit na galit ako. Gusto ko siyang saktan. Bugbugin pero alam kong wala akong karapatan. Sino ba ako? I'm just his neighbor. I just assumed pretty much that we have something.

Hinawi ko ang nakasalubong na si Ines. Dire-diretso lang ako hanggang sa aking kwarto. I glanced at the clock on my bedside table. A bitter smile crept on my lips. Magtatanghali tapos yun ang ginagawa niya? Seriously? Is he that maniac?

"That jerk! He doesn't deserve my love." I muttered angrily.

Pinagsusuntok ko ang unan at itinapon sa sahig. I cried non-stop, still thinking about what I just saw. The sight is too painful to see. Yun siguro ang gusto niyang mga babae. Yung malaki ang dibdib, maliit ang beywang at mahaba ang biyas.

Gosh!

I've got boobs all right. But not that big compared to that girl. Yung beywang ko maliit rin pero hindi parin ganun kaliit gaya ng bwisit na yun! And my height? It's hopeless.

I continued sulking the whole day. I just stayed in my room. Walang ginawa kundi titigan ang kisame ng aking kwarto. Poor me. How many times would I be crying because of that guy? He doesn't even deserve my tears! Asshole!

"Miranda?" Tawag mula sa labas ng aking kwarto.

Hindi ako sumagot. I covered my ears and continued staring at the ceiling as if it would change everything.

"Miranda?" Boses ulit ni Ines asungot. "Tumatawag daw ang mommy mo sa cellphone mo. Sagutin mo daw."

I pretended to not hear at all. Kahit ilang beses at paulit-ulit niyang tinawag ang pangalan ko ay nanatili akong bingi. I clutched on my pillow while silently weeping. My heart's too broken. Wala akong dapat sisihin kundi ang aking sarili. Kung sana'y dumistansya na agad ako habang maaga pa ay hindi sana ako masasaktan ng ganito. I'm at fault here. Umasa kasi ako.

I woke up with a heavy heart the next day. Nanatili akong tulala, tanging nasa isip ay ang nangyari kahapon. It's still fresh to me. Pabalik-balik ang imahe niya kasama ang babaeng hitad na iyon.

Inis na hinila ko ang sariling buhok. Padabog na bumangon ako at tinungo ang banyo. This is one of the worst days in my whole life! I feel so down. Staring at my face doesn't help at all. I don't look like the daughter of Jasmine and Benjamin Lewis anymore.

Bumaba ako na mabigat parin ang buong pakiramdam. I didn't eat anything at all. Wala akong gana.

"Miranda?"

"What?" Ni hindi tumitingin kay Ines na saad ko.

May inilapag siyang isang bouquet ng naggagandahang roses. My brows creased while looking at it.

"May nagpapabigay sayo."

"What?!" I half-shouted. "Sino?"

Umiling siya at itinuro ang card na kalakip ng bouquet.

Atubili man ay kinuha ko ang bulaklak at binasa ang nakasulat sa card.

I'm sorry, little girl.

Such a short note but it made my heart thumped faster. Tanging isang tao lang ang kilala kong tumatawag sa akin ng ganun.

Could it be him?

Why? Is he sorry because he played with my feelings?

"Throw this out, Ines." Walang kangiti-ngiti kong binitawan ang bulaklak. "I don't like it." Saad ko bago tumayo at iniwan siya.