Should I?

someone.

I know I can never be held because I know it's not always about me.
And I know my pain can't always show in tears because I'm not a child anymore and I should be able to handle the pain.
I also know I can't always complain because I'm better off than most people.

But why do I feel like a helpless child all the time?

All I want is someone to hold me and tell me it's going to be okay when pain hits.
I want someone to tell me and truly show me that they love me.
I want someone loyal who is always there to listen to me.
I just want someone to show me and tell me I am worthy of life.

Because all I feel is that I am a burden to this world not worthy enough to breathe air.
That the only thing I'm worthy of is death.

When a person sinks that low they need help to get to the surface.
They need someone they can trust and someone who does care.
They need someone to rely on who will always show up to listen. Just to listen.
Then to be held and to be told things will get better.

Because when they handle pain alone, hope is hard to find.
And when they can't fight anymore they turn to something that makes the pain worse.

So is there someone to hold me, listen to me, and I can rely on?

Because I just need someone here with me.