All I want is nothing more
To hear you knocking at my door
Cause If I could see your face once more
I could die a happy girl I'm sure
When you said your last goodbye
I died a little bit inside
And I lay in tears in bed all night
Alone without you by my side
If you love me
Why you leave me?
Take my body
Take my body
All I want is
And all I need is to find somebody
I'll find somebody
Like you
After singing All I want by Emma Bale, I felt tears started to form in my eyes. This song really fucks me up everytime I sing it, such a relatable song. I immediately walked out of the stage and went to catch some air at the rooftop. This place became my favourite since I can find peace in here and you can see the beautiful scenery of the ocean.
"It's beautiful."
I was shocked to see Deanna beside me.
"Jeez! You scared the shit out of me!"
"I'm sorry. I was just worried kasi you left the stage agad. Are you okay?"
"Wow!" I said sarcastically and clapped slowly. "Am I okay? My mom died, you left me, nawala ang scholarship ko and pinapaalis na ako sa apartment cause I can't pay for it anymore. What do you think? Of course I'm okay!" I added
"I'm sorry, Jema."
"You know what, screw it! The damage is done. And if you'll excuse me, bye!" I was about to walk away but she hugged me from behind.
"I missed you. I'm sorry for causing you so much pain. If I could just turn back time, I would stay with you. I was such an asshole for leaving you." she said and I can sense that she's crying because of her voice.
I wanted to tell her - I MISSED YOU TOO JUST FUCKING KISS ME. But I can't.
"You can't turn back time so please.. stop." I muttered and wiped my tears away I didn't noticed that I'm already crying. She let go of me and I walked away.
——
I was about to enter my apartment when I saw a group of men carrying my things and putting it outside. I ran towards them..
"Kuya! Anong ginagawa nyo?" I asked one of the men.
"Jema!" My landlady approached me. SHIT.
"Mrs. Tan magbabayad naman ako pag nakuha ko na sahod ko, please wag nyo naman gawin 'to sakin."
"Di ko naman gusto to, Jema. Pero wala na akong kita, may gustong magrenta dito hindi naman ako makahindi."
"Please, kahit isang week na palugit."
"Tatlong buwan kana di nakakabayad, Jema. Di pa ba sapat yun?"
"Andami kasing gastusin sa school, please po."
"Pasensya kana, Jema."
After her workers finished putting my things outside she locked the apartment. DAMN. Where will I go? I remembered Kat, I quickly dialled her number.
"Oh, Jema. Napatawag ka."
"Kat, pwede ba akong makitulog? Kahit ngayon lang."
"Ha? Bakit? Anong nangyari?"
"Di kasi ako nakabayad ng apartment e. Wala naman akong pera pangHotel."
"Jema, I'm sorry.. Nasa La Union kami ngayon e. Wala ka bang ibang kilala?"
"Okay lang, Kat. Try ko nalang sa iba."
I ended the call. I called my other friends but they said they're busy.
I sighed and grabbed my things, so basically I have 3 bags. I went to the nearest convenience store to buy foods. Damn I only have 500 pesos in my wallet. I bought a biscuit and a bottled water. I sat on the chair and started eating.
"Jema?"
I looked up and saw Luigi.
"Luigi?"
"Woah. Long time no see."
"Yeah."
"Hey, Deanna. Jema's here." He called Deanna who's busy choosing what to eat.
SHIT
"Can we sit here?" he asked and I nodded, he sat on the chair facing me.
DEANNA IS APPROACHING SHIT
"Hey." she said and sat beside Luigi.
"So, Jema. How are you?" Luigi asked
"Uhm, i'm okay.." I sighed and looked at Deanna.
THIS IS AWKWARD AF
"Andami mo atang dala? What's with the bags tho?" he asked
"I uhmm.. long story" I faked a smile
"Luigi, can you buy a frying pan?" Deanna said
"What?!"
"A frying pan" Deanna repeated
"What the fuck are you gonna do with a frying pan?"
"Just go." she frowned at Luigi.
"Ohhh, alright." he said and left.
Deanna and I are left alone and damn I'm sweating.
"What happened?" she asked
"None of your business."
"C'mon Jema. You can tell me."
"Nope."
"Pinaalis ka ba sa apartment mo?"
"..."
"You can stay with me, you know. My condo is big naman."
"No, thanks."
"Where else will you go?"
"Bat di mo itanong sa boyfriend mo?!"
"Boyfriend?"
"..."
"Ahh. Si Luigi? Are you jealous?" she teased me.
"Eww, no."
"Luigi is my friend."
"Friend ha."
"Jema, he's gay."
"What? Sabi niya sakin dati gusto ka niya. He even followed you in America." I was shocked.
"He's in a relationship with my cousin that's why he migrated in America." she laughed.
"Damn!"
"You're jealous" she smiled
"Shut up!"
"So, do you wanna stay in my condo?"
"..."
"C'mon. I won't do anything to you. I'm just trying to help a friend."
"Friend? So we're friends now?"
"Aren't we?" she said with confidence
"You've never change." I chuckled.
"So do you want my offer or no?"
"Okay. I'm in." I sighed
DAMN THIS IS A BAD IDEA.
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BROKEN STRINGS || JEDEAN AU
Fanfiction"I could never hate you for not loving me anymore, but I hate myself because I still love you." My name is Jessica Margarett Galanza, Jema for short. I'm about to tell you the story of my life, more specifically why my life ended (charot). I'm gonna...
