I've spent nearly every day at Ashton's house, or wherever he, Calum, and Michael drag me (my mother thinks I'm at a brainiac camp during the day, bless her soul). They have made me go paintballing (which hurts greatly I would not recommend that), watch every Star Wars and superhero movie (it was apparently unacceptable that I had never seen them), trained me in the art of video-gaming, and really anything that teenage guys consider fun. I was becoming a teenage guy.
I sat on my laptop, eating toast and surfing YouTube for videos of kittens. I didn't even like cats, but somehow Michael and Calum have got me addicted to these cute little videos. Gosh what am I becoming?
A few moments later my phone was ringing. Ashton, of course.
"Good morning," I smile, even though he can't see me.
"Woah, someone is cheery," he giggles into the phone.
"Yeah, I guess a little," I shrug. It's been nice this past week, I have been getting back to being myself. The happy, cheery Maddie. My laugh has come back, and my smile too. It is like I am finally finding the pieces that went missing.
"So, since you are in a good mood, I have a question for you," he asks timidly.
"Sure, shoot."
"Well, the boys and I have another gig tonight, and we really want you to be there," Ash tries to hide his excitement, but fails, bursting into a fit of giggles after he finishes.
"Oh my gosh, are you serious?" I cheer. This is everything they wanted. "Of course I'll go!" I just wanted to see how proud they looked up on stage. I wanted them to see how proud I was of them.
"Really? I thought it would be harder to get you to go, you know with Luke and everything," he mumbled quickly.
"Oh, I completely forgot about him," I admitted. The boys had done such a good job of distracting me that I seemed to think my Luke worries had faded. Yet distracting is not forgetting, and you could only stay distracted for so long.
"I'm sorry, I shouldn't have said anything." He sighed.
"No, he is going to be there, I just need to accept that," I whispered more to myself than Ashton. "Maybe I will just come later on."
"Yeah, I get it," he reassured me. "I'm surprised you even agreed to come at all. It means a lot Madds."
"Sorry," I bite my cheek. "I promise I will stop by though."
Why was I so weak when it came to Luke? Shouldn't I be over him by now?
"Thanks again," Ash returns to his excited state, "I will talk to you after the show, we have to go practice! The show starts at 7!"
I just laugh, saying goodbye before hanging up. I throw my phone on the floor, rolling over on my back and covering my face with my pillow, groaning loudly.
I had been making such good progress. I couldn't let this set me back.
I spent the rest of the day lying to myself and telling myself that Luke Hemmings meant nothing to me. I had no feelings for Luke. Luke was just another guy. I figured if I repeated that enough in my head then I might just start to believe it.
Seven o'clock came around and I was still helplessly repeating the same words over and over in my mind. I still wasn't believing the lies I was feeding my brain.
I slipped on a black skater dress with my toms. I waved my hair, put on a little more mascara than usual, and even a little bit of eyeliner. My sister had trained me well. I slipped on a floral headband, put on some chapstick and was good to go. It wasn't that much, but it was enough for me.
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Belief
Fanfiction{A 5sos story} We spend our lives sorting out our beliefs. Belief leads to high hopes, it leads to dreams, it leads to certainty in the uncertain. Too much belief leads to brokenness. There are people who come along and make you believe that 'belief...