Only Mine | Vkook

I don't love him

I pulled on my hair in frustration. I'm so fucking disappointed in myself. It kills me every time I recall what I blindly did to him as he helplessly begged for mercy. His chocked sobs. Soft whimpers. Those are supposed to melt my heart but it only added fuel to my hunger. It was no more a question of whether I was a monster or not but of what kind of monster I was. I felt sick to my stomach.
And to think that earlier today I promised myself not to make him cry ever again.Huh...What a joke.

"Oh man. It's not only you. He drives me insane too. He's such a cutie."

He chuckled, rubbing his nape, oblivious to what he just did to my inner alpha. All the regret long forgotten.

"He's mine beta!! Don't test my patience."

I hissed at him, grabbing his collars. I feel the veins bulging in my neck, anger coursing through my body.

"Hey hey.. It was just a joke man. He's all yours."

He held his hands up, in surrender, slight fear lingering in his eyes. He sighed in relief as I quickly released his collars realizing what I was doing. I sighed, covering my face again.

"see hyung? My Alpha can't even stand someone talking about him. He's fucking crazy over him. I don't know what I'll do next time I see someone with him."

I ruffled my hair in annoyance. I knew my inner alpha was more aggressive than any other regular alpha. He's so fucking hot tempered sick bastard, just like myself. Along with the fact that I'm from a true blood line. But that does not give me the right to treat taehyung like that.

"So it's only your inner alpha? You don't feel anything?"

Suga hyung raises an eyebrow without blinking, observing me intensely. He always does that. Fucking creepy.

"I... I don't know hyung. It's - it's just that he does things to me. He doesn't even have to try. One second he's just hanging around doing nothing. then BAM, I'm all over him. It was never like this before. He was cocky and hard headed but now He's so innocent and all petite and delicate. He drives me crazy. I wanna keep him to myself all day, all night, just for me.. I'm not even gay. But I can't help but crave him in the most inappropriate ways. I - I can't even say those things out loud right now.  Am I sick hyung? What's happening to me."

I voiced my actual thoughts, eyeing him carefully looking for any sign of him judging me. But there was none. All I could see was a soft looking suga hyung that I respected with everything in me. He chuckled ruffling my hair fondly. I eyed him in confusion.

"It's called falling in love Jungkook-ah. You're officially head over heels for kim Taehyung. You're not sick."

I choked on my spit. What. the. actual. fuck. I tried to regain my posture.

"Oh no hyung. I am not. Why - why would I l-love him. He's taehyung, my teammate, a guy. I'm not gay. No. A big fat no."

I insisted throwing my hands up to further prove my point. This hyung is insane. That's ridiculous.

"That's where you're wrong jungkook ah. You only think of him as taehyung. But he's an omega. Your omega. Your mate. It's simple. You're in love with your omega. That's not gay."

He wiggled his eyebrows, stating casually like it was the most obvious thing in the world. His logic does seem right though. Ignore it. How can he just state that I'm in love with our band mate. That's ridiculous. How can I- no. I'm not. I cleared my throat.