Escaping Strings

Chapter 5: Him?

“Wait, why are you suddenly cold? And why are you….” I didn't finished my words 'cause I got distracted when he moves his face closer to mine and captures my lips.

That's suave of him, eh? But no fair, he bit my lip and that made me moan. Ang sakit ng ginawa niya. Ano bang problema niya?

“Sino 'yung lalaking kasama mo?” he repeated between our kisses.

“Teka nga!” I push him, “Ano bang sinasabi mo? At bakit ba kailangan mo pang itanong kung…,” I said before he got me interrupted.

I cleared my throat as he started to unknot his tie. Ano ba naman? Nakakaloka siya. Bakit ayaw niyang bawas-bawasan ang tikas niya? Why is he so sexy?

“Lasing ka na yat—”

“Ako, lasing? Tss! I know what I am doing,” he hissed.

Teka, ano ba 'to? Ano ba talagang problema niya at parang ang init ng ulo niya? Anong ulo ba ang nag-iinit at nang mapalamig na? Ang bastos mo talaga, Martina! Ano na bang nangyari sa'yo at nagkaganiyan ka? Asdfghjkl!

Napapaatras ako na siya namang gapang niya palapit sa akin. Jusko, Martina! Ginagapang ka na, wala ka pang ginagawa! Mamaya rapist or murderer pala yang lalaking 'yan eh, nakatunganga ka pa rin diyan, pakyu ka! Mukhang hindi naman, businessman kaya siya. Naku! Gusto mo lang magpagapang eh. Tsk, tsk!

“Umuwi ka na muna at wala ako sa mood makipaggapangan sa'yo, please lang,” I said as soon as I felt his hand on my skin.

“May utang ka pa sa akin, hindi ba?” He smiled flirtatiously that made me raise an eyebrow.

Peste ka talaga, ang gwapo mo!

“At mukhang madadagdagan na naman dahil sa hindi mo pagsagot sa tanong ko,” he said before kissing me.

He laid me on the floor. Bakit ba? Pakialamero! Eh, sa ayaw kong sabihin eh! Kayo nga ang magsabi sa kaniya na napakapakialamero niya, sasapakin ko 'to eh. Ahhh! He's after my body!

I felt his hand on my breast and the other's unbuttoning my shorts. His kisses travels to my neck and it's driving me crazy. I pull his hair to kiss him on the lips. I am admittedly giving in, but that feeling had been wiped out when he came into my mind again.

“Ahhh,” he sexily moan when I bit his lips.

I am supposedly having fun but I felt my tears fall from my eyes. Bakit na naman, Martina? Ang drama ng buhay mo, ano? Sasakalin na talaga kita! Hindi naman ako basta-basta na lang na umiiyak ah, bakit ngayon ay iyak ako nang iyak? Tangna talaga, bakit kasi naalala ko siya. Naalala ko 'yung mga panahong nagpapaloko pa ako sa kaniya. 'Yung mga panahong ginagago niya pa ako. 'Yung mga panahong nagpapagago rin naman ako, and that's what's worst. Sinayang ko 'yung buhay ko. He doesn't deserve what I have had given to him, and I am afraid it might happen again this time!

“Babe?” He saw my tears and asked, “What happened?”

His face filled with worry. Why am I finding a good comfort within him? He cups my face and wipes my tears like gazing over me like he'll never hurt me.

“It's okay if you don't want to talk about who the hell he was. Ahm, do you want to be alone for now? I'll leave if—”

I just kissed him. Ang dami pang sinasabi. Talk? If I didn't let a tear fall, do you think that what we'll be doing is just a simple talk? He's ridiculous, isn't he? He's a good kisser too and I'm loving it. I just suddenly felt the need to kiss him. He didn't move at first, nagpapabebe pa siya pero ngayon, kung makahalik, akala mo ay gustong lunukin ang labi ko. Hindi ko alam kung tama pa ba 'tong mga ginagawa ko. Hindi ko alam kung dapat ko pang ipagpatuloy 'tong mga kalokohan kong ito. Hindi ko alam kung may patutunguhan o may magandang kalalabasan ba ang lahat ng ito pero oo, gusto ko. Ginusto kong gawin ito sa taong hindi ko kilala. Ginusto kong gawin ito nang paulit-ulit sa isang lalaking hindi ko alam kung saang kanto tumubo. Basta ang alam ko, siya, sa kaniya at wala nang iba pa. Yeah, he is not my first but for heaven's sake, can't he just be the last? I know, it sounds desperate but isn't it the right thing to do? We're doing it, anyway. Instead of doing it with different fucker in every single moment. Dang! Can't I just be with this man? I love teasing men, I love giving them a hard time, but this guy, I can't believe that he's showing me a little care after all that happened. It's like, he really is into me. He loves tailing me, he loves fucking me, he loves.... Can we just — No! Noway, I can't, it can't be. I swore, I would never settle or be with somebody with label. Never. Ever again.