His Kind Of Love

12

Ang pag-iwan ng taong mahal mo sa hindi mo alam na dahilan ang masakit. Hindi mo alam kung saan ka nagkamali. Hindi mo alam kung bakit niya ito nagawa.

We used to love each other senseless that's why it really hurts like hell but I need to be strong to regain all that I had lost when he left me. I believe that when things end with no warning, something greater is at work. The exit of James was my boarding pass to something new and something better. He already closed the door between us. Maybe James wasn't for me. I should take it in an acceptable and positive way para madali akong makalimot. I should be stronger than this trial. I should be tougher than life itself.

I heaved a deep sigh as I let those memories and pain away from my thoughts. I need to move on nga, di ba? James is just a part of my past now. I need to accept that we are not the end game.

My stomach suddenly growled. Hindi pa nga pala ako nagdidinner. I rose to the bed and went to the bathroom. I took a cold shower. I sighed as I let the cold water drips all over my body. Gusto kong isipin na hindi nangyari ang bagay na iyon sa pagitan namin ni James. Galit ako sa ginawa niya pero hindi ako makapag-tanim ng sama ng loob sa kanya mismo. Mind over matter. Siguro dahil sa pinagsamahan namin? I don't know. Hindi lang talaga kasi ako mapagtanim ng sama ng loob. I just hate what he did. I despise it. But I can't loathe him. The pain is still here, though. Hindi naman agad-agad mawawala ito pero naniniwala akong malapit na itong mawala. Mmalapit na.

I towel-dried my hair when I got out on the bathroom. I wore white skinny pants and black halter tops and paired it with a comfy doll shoes. Kakain lang naman ako sa labas kaya mas okay ng maging simple. Tumayo ako sa tapat ng vanity mirror at sinuklay ang buhok ko.

Hindi naman ako nagsisisi na pina-iksihan ang buhok ko pero sana lang madali lang itong pahabain dahil gusto kong kinukulot ito sa dulo. I shaded my lips with a red lipstick and put a light blush-on on my cheeks and I'm ready to go. I grabbed my purse and exited my suite.

Habang naghihintay na bumukas ang elevator ay inikot ko ang paningin ko sa tahimik na hallway. I was hoping na makita ko si Kevin na walang kasamang babae. Gusto ko siyang kausapin.

I got rooted on my spot for a split of seconds when the elevator opened. Imagine what I saw inside the elevator? Kevin is making out with a girl! At ito pa, hindi ito ang babaeng nakita ko na kasama niya kanina. Iba na naman! Ibang klase ang lalaking ito.

I cleared my throat hoping that I will intervene their moment but to my dismay they stood still as if I wasn't here.

Parang gusto kong takpan ang tenga ko para hindi ko marinig ang impit na ungol ng babae at ang tunog ng halikan nila. Naiinis ako. Hindi ko alam kung bakit. I feel like I want to punch someone or something! Naikuyom ko ang palad ko.

Why does he have to be like this?

Earth to Kevin? Bakit hindi ko siya ka-close like Lance so I can smack him in the head whenever I want to.

Nang tumunog ang elevator hudyat na nasa 8th floor na kami ay narinig kong may ibinulong si Kevin sa babae, it was inaudible so I don't know. The girl giggled and exited the elevator. I rolled my eyes.