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Kill or Kiss Me?|I, the Anti-Lover

Chapter Eight - I, the Anti-Lover

(Marco)

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I don't know what happened between them in the restroom but something must have really happened that triggered Butterfly  to cry like this.

I may not have been in the best terms with Butterfly but I know that I should do something when someone cries. I never saw her cry like this before.

She was always strong and I always thought that she had no other emotions but being angry, happy and annoyed. To see her so shattered what so out of her character.

I lead her to the park and motion her to sit. "I don't bite. Sit down, Butterfly."

She sits down but still keeps on crying as she tries to wipe her tears with her palms but still no avail as it still keeps trickling down her eyes. "I-I'm a fool."

I decided not to look at her and stare at my shoes, clasping my hands as I waited for her to tell. "I-I always tell myself I'm strong. B-but when it comes  to love..I-I-I"

She croaks. "I-I'm weak."

"Jackie told me she likes Oscar. I didn't know what to do," she sniffs. "--then she tells me that she wants my help and I couldn't say no. H-how can I say no when she's begging in front of me."

"I thought  Oscar was a sign that he was finally for me," she chuckles. "--but I was wrong. It seems that tall girls like me never gets the guy."

I clench my fists. Then I couldn't help but  shout at her to make her realize. "You're pathetic! Just because Jackie told you she needed your help doesn't mean you can't fight for him too!"

"Does Jackie belong to Oscar? No! Did he say so? How can you just dismiss that fact you idiot!"

"Dia---"

"If you love someone you fight for them! You're not even trying, how can Oscar like you if you give up that easy?" I look at her in frustration and I wanted to shout at her more when I realize I took it too far.

I kept silent. "Sorry."

"No, you're right," she smiles at me but her tears betray her. "--but I give up."

"Don't you want to be his girlfriend? Don't you want to be by his side?" I ask her and she nods.

"I like Oscar but he likes Jackie too," she wipes her tears and finally she starts to calm down. "--even if he didn't tell it straight  to my face, I could tell. That happiness in his face is what I feel whenever I'm near to him."

"I want to be by his side. I want someone to finally love me for who I am," she smiles bitterly. "--but the thing is that I don't want to get in their way. I don't want to be the reason why they are in misery just because of my selfish needs."

"And, and I--I always cherish my friends first so I don't have the heart to try and steal Oscar," she says. "--I'll always put my friends first even if it hurts me. I want Oscar to be happy, if he's happy then I'm happy."

"What about you, Diaz? Aren't you heartbroken that Jackie likes Oscar?" she asks and I kick a pebble nearby. "I already knew that."

"I already knew she liked Oscar. I was lying to myself and thought that I could have her if I try, but I guess not," I clench my fists. "--this is stupid."

"Well we two are stupid," she says and stares ahead at where the sunset is. "That sky is pretty, isn't it?"

I stare at her but I don't say anything and watch as she stares in awe at the view. "I give up," I say and she looks at me.

"We hadn't started the fight but we already lost from the start," I continued.

"Are my eyes puffy?" she asks and I smile. "Yeah, they're so puffy you could pop them with a needle. It's like bees stung your eye."

She chuckles and I couldn't help but laugh. "I'm over it."

"Diaz, I'm going to be strong and the next time I like someone again, I'll fight for it," she looks at me with determination. I pat her head.

"You promise too," she nudges me by shoulder and I sigh. "Fine. I promise I'll fight for the person I like too, happy?"

"Now that's over, the only thing left is to support Jackie and Oscar," she says and paddles her feet back and forth. "--I don't think we're gonna have much of a problem,  but they need a little push  from us."

I grab something from my pocket and hand it to her. "Wipe your face with it."

She stares at it. "What are you waiting for? Do you want me to wipe your face?"

She grins and shakes her head. "It's  just that I was thinking about something. It's nothing really."

"But thank you, Diaz," she wipes her eyes. "--I don't know what would I do if you weren't here."

March 29,2020