day 19
6.30 pm
jeon jeongguk
3rd person point of viewthe heart wants what it wants
haru doesn't look like she's keen
on the idea of having three boys
lead the way to a daegu food faireverytime jeongguk glances to his side
she's either clinging onto his arm
or giving the boys looks
that jeongguk takes as a sign of
i still don't trust themhonestly, he loves how protective
he can get over herjust like he'd thought of before;
the boys were homelessfor some reason he feels bad
maybe it's because
he can never really relate to them;
he has a home in busan
with his family waiting
waiting for news of him to show himself again
waiting for him to come home
waiting to know if he's alright and safehe recalls the day he first left seoul
and everyone started looking for himhis mother called
and he'd told her that he needed
some time away
to think, to be alone for awhilewhen she called again two days after
he told her that he's planning to go homethe third time she called
jeongguk decided that he couldn't hide it anymore
he told her the truth
heard her gasp and break down in tears
and promised to return home
as soon as he could so he could
see them all againthe pain in his heart was excruciating
the fact that he wouldn't be able to
be with the people he loves for long
terrifies him
the fact that there is no way
out of this stupid mess
breaks himand the fact that he wouldn't be
able to be with you
whether or not his feelings are returned
makes him feel like the dirt
scattered on the face of the Earth
stepped on, kicked about
just
completely hopelessif he thinks back on what he'd
seen a couple hours ago
he thinks his heart will shatter into pieces
"LEE HARU
DAUGHTER OF FAMOUS CEO LEE
OF SURI ENTERPRISE AND SOON-TO-BE
FIANCE OF PARK ENTERPRISE MISSING"fiance
fiance fiance fiance
the words ring in his head like a mantra
and with every syllable that
bounces against his skull
he feels a crack forming in his hearthe's in love
he's sure of it
he's fucked
he knowsand he doesn't even know if the feeling is mutual
she wanted to run away
to escape reality for awhilejeongguk just had to come by
at the exact place
at the exact same time
to stumble into her lifebut just like their freedom
he isn't going to linger around very longand it breaks him
the thought of losing her breaks himbecause for the past 20 years
nobody has ever made him
feel as happy and secure
as she did
she did in 20 dayshe doesn't want to let go
no, not yet
he tells himself that he's going to fight it
to stay as long as he canbecause as long as she needed him
he wants to be there for herbecause
(he won't deny it)
for the first time in 20 years
he's knows what it feels like to be in love(and he is positively,
completely,
truly
sure of it)
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𝐀𝐋𝐌𝐎𝐒𝐓 𝐇𝐎𝐌𝐄 ‣ jjk
Fanfiction"But if that accident is inevitable," I murmur, eyes softening. "Would you want me to let go?" Jeongguk pauses for a moment. "Leave the guilt and regret to me," he replies softly. "Once you start a journey, you finish it. It's only right for you to...