BTS HYYH NOTES

Jeon Jungkook - 11 April Year 22

11 April Year 22

I finally fulfilled my wish.

When I saw the hooligans on the street, I bumped into them and got a beating.

As they beat me, I laughed.

It made them call me crazy and hit me harder.

I leaned against the shutters and looked at the dark sky.

It's late at night.

There's nothing to see in the sky.

I saw grass that look like how I felt.

Easily blown over by the wind, just like me.

I felt the tears coming and purposefully that myself cry.

When I closed my eyes I saw an image of my stepfather clearing his throat.

My stepbrother continuously kicking me while laughing.

My stepfather's relatives would look elsewhere or talk about meaningless things.

As if I didn't exist, as if I was nothing.

In front of them, my mother stood helplessly.

I started coughing from dust.

My chest hurt as if someone had taken a knife to it.

I climbed up the roof of the construction site.

The dark colors of the night seemed to overshadow the city.

I walked on top of the railing, holding out both my hands for balance.

In that moment I nearly stumbled and lost my balance.

That gave me the idea that I could die if I just took one more step.

But would death bring the end of anything?

No one would be sad if I was not around anyway.