She's Mine (Killua X Reader)

Chapter 30

Previously on Chapter 29

"So... To do that, you have to marry my son" she said. "But Killua is..." I start, but she cut me off. "He's gone... I know. But I'm not talking about him" she said. Then she looks at Illumi, who's sitting next to her. I realise what she meant. I shook my head and stands up "I'm not marrying him! He's the reason we lost Killua in the first place! I'd rather die than be with him!" I yelled. Then storm out of the room.

Like hell I will marry that guy.... He's the reason I lost Killua... I'd rather die than marry to him

-Shocked-

Y/N P.O.V

I run out of the room. Then I reached the garden. I take a seat on the bench. I pull my knees closer to my chest as I cried. 'Killua... Why does it have to be like this?' I thought to myself.

I heard footsteps coming closer to me. But I didn't pay attention to it. I just stayed silent and continue to cry.

"Y/N..." Kikyo-Sama said. "I'm sorry... I didn't mean to act like this towards you... But I just can't get married to him. I don't love him.... I love Killua... I'll always be" I said. Kikyo take a seat next to me. She place her hand on my back and starts rubbing it.

"I understand..." She said. Then I hear her footsteps walking away. I look up and I watch as she keeps walking. I stayed for a while as I still cry. When I feel that I'm calm enough, I got up and head towards my room.

I enter my room and lock the door. I don't want anyone to bother me. I take a seat on the piano I have in this room. I need something to calm me... Music is the only one that could, besides Killua. But he's not here anymore, he'll never be here.

I thought I saw a man brought to life
He was warm, he came around like he was dignified
He showed me what it was to cry

Well, you couldn't be that man I adored
You don't seem to know
Seem to care what your heart is for
But I don't know him anymore

There's nothing where he used to lie
My conversation has run dry
That's what's going on
Nothing's fine, I'm torn

I'm all out of faith
This is how I feel
I'm cold and I am shamed
Lying naked on the floor

I keep singing... This songs fit my feelings right now. Illumi is trying to replace Killua in my heart. But he can't ever replace him. I love Killua... Illumi is the very reason I lost him. So there's no way... No way I could ever love him.

Illusion never changed
Into something real
I'm wide awake and I can see
The perfect sky is torn
You're a little late, I'm already torn

So I guess the fortune teller's right
I should have seen just what was there
And not some holy light

But you crawled beneath my veins
And now I don't care, I have no luck
I don't miss it all that much
There's just so many things
That I can't touch, I'm torn

I'm all out of faith
This is how I feel
I'm cold and I am shamed
Lying naked on the floor

Illusion never changed
Into something real
I'm wide awake and I can see
The perfect sky is torn
You're a little late, I'm already torn, torn