yes,two chapters in a row:)
Charlie's pov:
It was the first day of our vacation and our last meet and greet, it has always been like that; meet and greets and vacation came together. We're just lucky we only have one fan meet today.
Leo still doesn't want to talk to me and Chloe being Chloe has been clinging on to me 24/7 ensuring I don't leave her side to go to Leo.
"Sing! Sing! Sing! " the fans chanted over and over again.
Before I could say anything, Leo lift up his mic and started to sing.
Feeling used
But I'm
Still missing you
And I can't
See the end of this
Just wanna feel your kiss
Against my lips
And now all this time
Is passing by
But I still can't seem to tell you why
It hurts me every time I see you
Realize how much I need you
everyone knew Leo rarely sings so all the fans kept silent, savouring this moment.
I hate you, I love you
I hate that I love you
Don't want to but I can't put nobody else above you
I hate you, I love you
I hate that I want you
You want her, you need her
And I will never be her
he was singing about Chloe and I, I could feel his sadness and tell that he was crying just as I was by the hoarseness of his voice and his red, sore eyes.
I cut him off before he could sing another word.
I miss you when I can't sleep
Or right after coffee
Or right when I can't eat
I miss you in my front seat
Still got sand in my sweaters
From nights we don't remember
Do you miss me like I miss you?
Fucked around and got attached to you
Friends can break your heart too, and
I'm always tired but never of you.
before I could sing more,
If I pulled a you on you, you wouldn't like that shit
I put this real out, but you wouldn't bite that shit
I type a text but then I nevermind that shit
I got these feelings but you never mind that shit
Oh oh, keep it on the low
You're still in love with me but your friends don't know
If u wanted me you would just say so
And if I were you, I would never let me go
he sang these words whilst looking at me throughout, I broke his heart.
I don't mean no harm
I just miss you on my arm
Wedding bells were just alarms
Caution tape around my heart
You ever wonder what we could have been?
He continued;
You said you wouldn't and you fucking did
Lie to me, lie with me, get your fucking fix
Now all my drinks and all my feelings are all fucking mixed
Always missing people that I shouldn't be missing
Sometimes you gotta burn some bridges just to create some distance
I know that I control my thoughts and I should stop reminiscing
But I learned from my dad that it's good to have feelings
When love and trust are gone
I guess this is moving on
Everyone I do right does me wrong
So every lonely night, I sing this song
our fans started cheering and clapping loudly while I saw at the corner of my eye, Leo drying the tears that had managed to escape, down his cheeks.
"Leondre! Leondre! Leondre! "
"Here's one of our own, hope you enjoy, " Leo managed to get out.
He started talking out Fast Car;
I hope some night you'll be reading off this page
Can you hear me in the street light breathing out your name?
A dark emotion left me broken tied around my head
Tied so tight there's not a feeling left
Maybe I should leave to reach a state of inner peace
I know that it is hard understanding you and me
Our family is broken, our family is gone
I'm writing this letter to tell you I can't carry on
I hesitantly pick up my mic but leo refused to look at me and so
By the time we meet again
It may not be me, my friend
I'll be someone else
Heart so shattered that I can hardly sleep
The only time I see your face is invested in a dream
I try to forget you, inside I am torn
(I'll be someone else)
Although you are heart broken I am heart broken more
His raps has never sounded as truthful as it is now
I'm gonna buy a fast car
A new fast car
And I'll drive drive drive drive
Fast car
And I'm never coming back again
I'm gonna buy a fast car
A new fast car
And I'll drive drive drive drive
Fast car
And I'm never coming back again
There is no way to take back my actions
Everything is marred, smeared into the blackness
The deadness of the wind and the whispering moon
(I'll be someone else)
If there is a heaven I will see you there soon
his voice broke at the last sentence but I ignored it.
"I'm so sorry" I mouthed to him.
he turn his gaze back to the crowd, as if my words had stung him.
Leo's pov: (trigger warning)
The meet and greet finally ended, it's not that I'm ungrateful, I just couldn't bear seeing him.
"Hey, Leo. I'm going on a date with Chloe now but please promise me when I come back, you'll let me explain. "
I nodded meaningless
for only I knew I won't be here by then.
If Charlie can break my heart with 3 words I could break his with 1.
he would see me
but I won't be here
*I took a post-it and stick it on the bathroom mirror, took the shaver at the sink and filled the bathtub with cold water.
I laid there as I cut
one, two, three, four, five
I start working on the other arm
one, two, three, four, five
soon the bathtub was filled with red tainted water, my body so cold I could feel nothing but my heart ache. Nothing at all. As distant screams lull me to sleep. And a pair of lips with salty tears was the last thing I felt before I slept into unconsciousness.*
@suhtorii goodbye
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