Why do I trust you? (Zion Kuwonu)

If you love me wont you

Say something

This song has been repeating in my head and through my speakers

You my coffee that i need in the morning

Your my sunshine in the rain when it pouring

I just want to see you for how beautiful you are

If life is a movie your the best part

Zion has stopped with the videos and started sending text messages

So Zion is literally saying something like the song says but I'm too stupid to talk to him or even rethink

I get out of bed literally nearly dead because I've been working myself to death

Oh yeah

BTW

it's been like a month since Zion's been here it's literally Christmas tomorrow

I'm upset coz I fully wanted to work on Christmas Day because I didn't want to face my family

And my stupid shop is closed on Christmas *rolls eyes*

My mum said she's considering getting me a therapist because I don't talk to her about my problems but I never used to talk to her before Zion either

So i have no idea how she could be concerned

I get out of bed showering and cleaning my room top to bottom everything is wiped down everywhere is hovered and all my clothes are organised into activity: work / casual / dance class / going out / around the house / pyjamas

Im bored now like nothing to do my room was the only thing I needed to do today I get out presents wrapping then i get to Zion's which I ordered from when her was here that shipping is getting a bad review

I got him a pair of i have not clue what they called

No idea why because honestly I don't like them but the Christmas sale had me buying anything and everything i got him some adidas socks and a whole tracksuit I still wrapped it not really sure what to do with it i put it under my bed putting the rest under the tree

I straightened the fuck out of my hair because I can not be bothered to keep it curly and cute for the camera my mum puts on us every year

I decided it's time to dance like for myself I'm failing all my dance classes at the moment because I don't have any ambition