i felt my heart drop into my stomach. i cant believe they were reading that.
i could feel the tears starting to rush down my face. hearing it out loud made it so much worse. i cant believe they were reading it.
cant they just respect my privacy and not have to go looking for an answer?
emma-"alex what's wrong."
aw crap. i turned and so emma. i went past her and went into my room.
i went into the corner of my room and just sat down. i had my hands in my face i couldnt even speak.
all i did was breath out sobs and have tears pour down my face.
i heard someone knocking on my door. i didn't say anything. i had no idea who it was and i didnt want to know who was on the other side of the door.
emma-"alex? whats wrong."
i didn't say anything. i put my hood over my head and covered my eyes with my hands.
emma-"alex please!"
she was knocking harder and faster.
marcus-"emma whats wrong?"
oh great. now marcus is outside and this is all getting so much worse.
emma-"alex won't come out."
martinus-"well why not?"
no. i dont want martinus coming in. he can't see me cry. this is already the worst day ever and it hasn't even begun yet.
martinus-"alex? what's wrong. seriously?"
marcus-"please what happened?"
i couldnt even form the words to say anything to the two of them. great just great. why is this happening to me.
i want to go home. i want to go home and be with my brother and my mom. i dont want to be here.
i took my phone from my hand and dialed jack. maybe he could come me down.
jack-"hey."
alex-"j-jack."
jack-"alex whats wrong."
alex-"t-they were talking about me. they know everything."
jack-"shh alex please don't cry."
i needed him to give me a hug but he couldnt do that.
jack-"alex?"
i hung up the call. he wasn't going to do anything for me. hes so far away.
gerd anne-"alex its me."
i didn't even want to see her. i always want to see gerd anne. she was the first one here i felt comfortable with.
gerd anne-"alex please."
i didn't say anything. the door opened. it was gerd anne.
i could see the blonde strands of hair, the boys were still out there.
she came and kneeled in front of me.
gerd anne-"what is it?"
alex-"marcus, m-martinus."
gerd anne-"what did they do?"
alex-"i can't."
gerd anne-"fine. i will find out from them."
she looked at her watch.
gerd anne-"oh boy they are going to be late. we will continue this when we get home. you are staying here."
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