A Daughter Seeking For Love and Attention

Chapter 1

Kali's POV

I admire how everyone manage to silence their dirty mouth when my books fell on the ground. It's like they are watching a fairy tale where a villain and the main character are fighting.

"Ano sa tingin mo ang dapat kong gawin sayo huh?!"- I pretended to be mad at the person in front of me. I saw how she trembled in so much fear. That‘s it, fear me!

" Sorry po Miss Kali hindi ko po sinasadya!"-she was begging like her life is at sake well, I can‘t blame her, I bet my whole face screams danger because that's how I want everyone to see me.

"Ang sabi ko, ano sa tingin mo ang dapat kong gawin sayo?!"-I shouted this time. Gosh! I hate shouting but I should give everyone a good show.

I noticed how her eyes watered, indicating that she is about to cry. I was peacefully walking while wearing my bitchy face a while ago then she suddenly bumped unto me, my books fell on the ground. I was about to ignore it since I know that she didn‘t do it on purpose but then the students started to gather and I just can‘t leave because it might ruin my reputation.

"Sorry po talaga Miss Kali hindi napo ito mauulit”- she is begging right now while collecting my books who are scattered on the ground. Biglang nangibabaw ang awa ko nang halos hingalin lang siya sa pag ihip upang matanggal ang mga dumi na nakadikit dito. I just wanted to run away from the image I built but I just can‘t.

I held back my emotion "Sasagot ka sa tanong ko o ako mismo ang pipili ng parusa mo!!"- I make sure to put some emphasis on each word for her to understand that she can pick whatever punishment she can do. I silently prayed that she will understand what message I want to convey. Please don't make it hard for both of us.

Every time na may nangyayaring ganito, I just can‘t help but to feel guilty since I know that I am dragging innocent and kind people to my problems and personal issues.

"Dapat ko pong linisin ang dadaanan niyo"-nakayukong sambit nito. Nakahinga ako nang maluwag on what she said. Sa totoo lang ay naaawa ako ngunit hindi nadin iyun malaking trabaho sapagkat palagi namang malinis ang University na pinapasukan ko.

"Good"-walang emosyon na sambit ko. I want to end this scene as soon as possible.

"Simulan mo na"-sambit ko at naglakad na. Wala naman siyang nagawa kundi ang sumunod sa utos ko dahil alam na niya ang mangyayari kapag sumuway pa siya and I don‘t want that to happen.

Narinig ko na naman ang mga bulong-bulungan ng mga estudyante na nadadaanan ko, bigla akong huminto sa harapan nila at tinaasan sila ng kilay. I want to shout at them that the show is over, the villain won against the main character.

They shivered in so much fear at nagmadaling umalis. Nagpatuloy nalang ako sa paglalakad hanggang makarating ako sa labas ng gate kung saan naghihintay ang driver namin. Agaran rin akong pumasok sa kotse upang huminga at muling tanggalin ang maskarang araw araw kong sinusuot upang huwag akong masaktan. Yes, I‘m just pretending to be someone else, I‘m pretending to be a bitch in front of others so that I won‘t get attached and hurt myself again. I‘m just preventing myself from another heartbreak. Is that bad? Because if it is, then that makes me a terrible person. I‘ve experienced so much, that I learned to shut down myself from everyone and build an invisible wall to protect myself.

I didn‘t even notice that we already arrived at my parent's house. Yes house, because I didn‘t felt that this is home. Because this place is more terrible than the university. Tahimik akong pumasok ng bahay, ingat na ingat na huwag tumunog ang heels na suot ko, upang hindi ako mapansin ng kapatid ko sapagkat hindi na naman ako titigilan non. Ngunit napatigil ako nang makarating sa living room, medyo nagulat pa ngunit agad ring napangiti ng mapakla, sapagkat hindi na naman nila sakin sinabi na nakauwi na sila, sana nagmadali man lang akong umuwi. Even if they didn‘t treat me right, I‘m still excited to see them arrive safe.