"Why are you wearing glasses like that you look like a stupid."
"What happened to your clothes why are you always wearing that one? you don't have money to buy a new one?"
"Poor you!"
"Seriously, you look like a freak."
"Why you still use that phone? That's old already!"
"Don't talk that way, you're way too different from us!"
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Those words are only a part of the thousand insults I have heard.
And after I'm tired with that, I sit and thinking
"How to even please them? the society? how to be always great in their eyes?"
I started remove my glass everytime I take a photo, says good words on social media just to looked nice, nagging my parents to but me a new phone that most of my friends have, changing my clothes. I changed this and that just to please them, just to make and have friends, in thought that "I wish that I could be like the cool kids." without realizing that actually, I changed the old version of me, the old me that full of peace, full of good books and slow melodies.
I always find myself in a different version of me.
Stupid, kind, temperamental, bitchy, and weird. Just in a label to please the society so I will be looked as a perfect or at least, a good person.
And now, I'm sitting again and realizing that I'm wasted.
I waste the couple of years in my life just to changing myself, to find the real me, I said.
But, I'm totally wrong. What I did all this times was just to please society that don't even care about how depressed I can be.
Please take a note that, the only way to find the real you is,
Pray to God, and follow your heart.
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The Untolds
PoetryThere are things in life that you wish you could tell people easily, but you find yourself didn't find any single words, combine it into sentences and make it whole as a story, then tell it to people that some of them, will judge you easily before y...
