I'm Here to Fix You - Broken Souls Series #2

He's a keeper

Jake sighed. "You're probably trying to get back at Chicago guy for some reason. Normally I'd be on your side, but ... this is not right."

"It's because I'm a virgin, isn't it? I thought you liked that. Didn't you want to be my first?" And they say we women are fickle. What about men, then? They change their minds like a girl changes clothes. I'm so sick and tired.

Jake rolled his eyes. "You're not listening." He grumbled.

I scoffed, getting rid of his grip to sit properly, but I couldn't because he was basically keeping me pinned with his weight. Funny how we were both mostly naked yet we were having a discussion instead of doing the dirty deed. Oh, wait, it's not funny ... it's just damn frustrating. "I'm naked beneath you, Jake. Naked." I grabbed my boobs for show, and squeezed them together. "See? They're here for you? What's taking you so damn long to make up your mind?"

"I don't have to. Simply I won't do anything when you're like this."

Ugh. "Coward."

"You'll thank me someday." He pulled back, and stood. He seriously stood, then zipped his pants back up.

I leaned on my elbows, frowning. "You'll regret this." I know I do. Now I'll have to find another way around these goddamn thoughts. If sex isn't the answer, then I don't know what is. Aside from sleeping pills, I mean. Ok, maybe it was just a tad bit about revenge too. Just a bit.

Jake laughed, the jerk. "Oh, I know I will. But I also know you'll come around someday. Then we'll make up for all the time we've wasted."

I scoffed. "Dream on, buddy." I sat up. "You've just missed your chance. This train only leaves once, and you just missed it." The words sounded tacky even to my ears, I know, but I couldn't help myself.

Jake bent down, and took me off guard by gripping my chin, staring straight into my eyes. He pecked my lips, and I hoped he'd changed his mind, even though at this point my pride would tear me apart, but no ... he merely teased me, pulling back before I could enjoy it. See? He's a predator, he hates being prey, it turns him off. I should have known.

"One day you'll come around, you'll see." Jake murmured against my lips, his fingers grazing my chin. He kissed me as softly as I'd never expected him to, eyes half closed. "One day you'll realize, there's something between us. Something neither of us can control. Something that binds us inevitably." Jake's breath seemed shaky somehow. "One day you'll love me like I do, Silvia. I just hope I'll have the time to minimize the damage."

"The ... damage?" He just said ... no, he can't have said ... not him too ...

Jake inhaled a deep, melancholy sigh as he left his forehead against mine. "Loving me would cost you more than you could possibly give, baby. And I would be a selfish fool to let you. But ... may God forgive me, even a cold stone heart like mine needs relief sometimes, and the trouble is, you're the only one that can give it."

"Jake ..." No, no, no. I need the hype, the seduction, not the feelings. No feelings, damnit. I left Ryan purposely, for God's sakes. No feelings involved. Ugh.

Jake closed his eyes, and pecked my lips. "I know, you don't wanna hear it. But if it serves to help you regain your senses, then I'll just lay it down, thick and thin."

"Jake ..."

"I love you, Silvia." There you go, he just had to say it. "There's nothing you could do with a corrupted heart like mine, but it's yours, and I won't deny it, it does hurt. I-"

"Jake, I-"

"I think our roads need to separate here." He blurted out before I could argue.

I blinked my eyes, marveled. "What?" How the hell did we go from sex to this? Where the hell does this come from?