Unexpected

Home Sweet Home

Pushing Amari up the curb to our house, I smile to myself because it's such a pretty house. I worked so hard on beautifying it into the sexy beast it is today. Lifting Amari out of the stroller, I carefully pull it up the stairs to the door and fish my keys out of the back pocket of my jeans and opened the front door. The sweet aroma of apples and cinnamon greets me, and I close my eyes and inhale for a bit before placing the stroller besides the door, and lock the door.

I walk towards the living room with Amari in my arms and sit on the couch with her in my lap, just to relax with my favorite girl for a minute. She is preoccupied with one of her toys and I took the time to appreciate the decor of my open concept home. I never get tired of looking at it even though I see it every day.

The cool blues, greys and cream really help to relax me after a long day at the pastry shop. Sighing softly to myself, I get up and carry Amari with me to my bedroom to get started on our evening bath. My bedroom is my oasis and comfort zone and I love curling up in my cozy chair with a book when my baby is asleep for the night. 

I placed Amari in the middle of my bed and walked into my master bathroom to start on our bath.

I walked towards the bathtub and started to full it up water after adjusting the temperature just right.  I then added some bubble soap made with only organic ingredients so as to not irritate my baby's sensitive skin. After its filled, I walk back out to my bedroom and started to undress Amari and then myself. Making our way to the tub, we got in slowly and I sighed at how good the water felt on my skin. Not being able to stay too long in the tub for fear of my baby pruning, we got out after 20 minutes.

Both my munchkin and I are now clean, dry and dressed. I place her down and she follows me to the kitchen so that I can start on dinner. All while I'm cutting up vegetables for my stir fry,  no time did my mind run on the invitation I got from the 'headmistress'. When dinner is finished, I feed both myself and Amari and not too long after she falls asleep and I take her to her room. 

I place her in her crib and kiss her good night as I pull her blanket over her and turn on her monitor. I stand there just watching at how big she's getting, and I can't help myself from wondering what it would've been like if things with Danté hadn't turned out the way it did.

"We could've been so happy".

I murmured to myself as I felt a tear run down my cheek. I had promised myself that I wouldn't cry over him but it's just heart breaking.  Sighing for the thousandth time today, I turn off the light and head back to my room to relax in my bed and before I knew it I'm out cold due to my silly tears.