Chapter 19 - Decision
Natasha's POV
I haven't eaten, slept or spoken in three days. I have been in my room as much as I can, rarely leaving. I haven't been to school, I wouldn't be able to focus. I don't go down to eat meals with the Baker's, but they always come to my room and try and get me to leave. I just sit there, saying nothing and doing nothing. Eventually they leave, but they are reluctant. Mason never comes up to get me though. I don't think he can bear to see my face.
The pain I feel is too strong for me to do anything. I can't even cry anymore because I have run out of tears. Mason hasn't spoken to me, every time he sees me he looks away. I can't bear to have him hate me like this, it hurts so much.
People have tried to talk to me but I don't answer. I've seen myself in the mirror, my eyes look completely vacant.
I just want all the pain to end, the one thing that I need in my life is gone, so there is no point in continuing. I'm not needed by anybody, no one will miss me. I will end it all, I've made my decision.
I get off my bed, feeling a new found sense of determination. I'm going to finally do what I have been so scared tot do before. I walk into the bathroom and towards the sink. I pick up the razor, looking at myself one more time in the mirror before I bring the razor down to my wrist. I push it deeply into my skin as I bring it across my wrist, donning this over and over again, then moving onto the other one.
There is blood everywhere and I start to feel light headed. Black spots start to appear in my vision and I feel myself falling. I hit the floor with a thud and everything around me starts fading. I know I don't have much time left. I welcome death with open arms, finally getting what I have been waiting for. Just before I leave this world completely I say.
"I love you Mason."
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Teen FictionNatasha Wilde has it hard. Her mother died when she was 8 and her father abuses her. Now at 16 years old, she keeps herself sane by secretly competing in gymnastics tournaments, training in the gym at school. When her neighbours finally take action...