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Hey guys! It's me again, rambling about stuff you probably don't care but I felt like I needed to let it out, even if nobody reads it.

I'm so nervous... I have been nervous for a few days but now I'm getting way more nervous...

In less than 48 hours I'm going to college. I know most of you already started school but I still haven't and this year I left high school and I'm going now to college and start everything over because no one that I know is going to the same college as me.

I'm really nervous because it's a new place with new people and more pressure to get better grades so I can get a good job and... yep I'm starting to freaking out and the classes still didn't started. I'm always like this I start to get nervous and start to worry about every single thing.

I could be nervous because of the classes and the teachers but I'm also nervous because of the people. Not that I think that where I'm gonna go it will have awful people, it's just I'm really awful at making new friends, I'm always shy when you met me...

yes after I get to know the person I start to act normal and maybe even show my crazy side but it's hard for me to make new friends and I can't see right now the good side. I mean, I know I'm going to get into college to have a good job and all that but... I'm afraid of starting over...

High school was safe, I had my friends there and I knew everything and how it worked and now I have to start over and I'm freaking out and wondering if I even know how to make friends. Gosh, I seem like a kid with no friends.

Anyways, if you read it until now, then thank you for reading it. I appreciate the people who actually spend their time reading just me talking about stuff even if it's nothing that concerns them.

I love you guys!