back to me ; [chanbaek]

xxxviii

I know the feeling of losing a child.

This is his second time to lose a child...

I don't know. I feel weird. Sabi rin nila na hindi lumalabas si Chanyeol ng bahay niya. He's depressed.

"Ma! Okay na po. Ma?" I woke up in my trance by Jesper. Agad ko naman siyang binuhat para makapag-hugas siya ng kamay. Nagulat ako nung bigla niyang ilagay ang kamay niya sa magkabila 'kong pisngi.

"Omygod Jesper! Jeske! Yung kamay mo! Madumi!" At lokong bata, tinawanan lang ako.

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"Jesper, stay by my side. Pipili lang ako ng meat. Don't go anywhere." I said. Tumango naman siya habang nililibot ang paningin niya sa loob ng supermarket.

Humarap ako sa butcher at sumenyas ng 3 portions of pork neck and bacon. Since Jesper loves them. Nag-thank you ako nung nai-abot na sakin yung meat. I placed them in the cart. At tumingin ako sa tabi ko at tinawag si Jesper. 

"Jesper, let's go-- Jesper?!" I panicked nang makita 'kong wala si Jesper sa tabi ko. Where is he!? Agad akong naalarma at umalis sa pwesto ko para hanapin si Jesper. Omygod, where is he? I can't lose him!

"Excuse me?" I tried to ask some guy who's working at the supermarket. "May nakita ba kayong bata na ganito kaliit? He looks like me, 6 years old. Wearing a school uniform."

"I'm sorry sir, pero wala po. Try niyo po sa customer's service." agad akong nag-thank you. I forgot all about shopping at tumakbo papunta sa customer's service I need to find my son.

"Attention Everyone, we found a missing child wearing a school uniform, around six years old. Please proceed to the customer's service if you are the guardian, thank you." 

After hearing that, kumaripas ako ng takbo. While approaching the said customer's service. I saw a glimpse of Jesper, kahit nakatalikod pa ito. I know it's him. I sighed in relief. He was sitting on a man's leg. 

"JESPER!" Sabay  silang lumingon. At nagulat ako kung sino yung kasama niya.

"Eomma!" tumakbo papalapit si Jesper sakin. Agad ko naman siyang niyakap. God, I was scared. Habang yakap yakap ko si Jesper napatingin ako kay Chanyeol, he was also staring at me. Kumalas ako kay Jesper, I looked at him while I held him on this shoulders. "I told you to stay put, wag mo na uulitin yun ha?" tumango naman siya.

"I'm sorry, Eomma." I kissed his forehead, at napansin ko na nakatayo na si Chanyeol. I stood up as well. Hinila ako ni Jesper. at nagsalita. "Eomma! Meet Tito Chanyeol! My new friend!" 

"H-hi." yun lang yung tanging lumabas sa bibig ko. Napansin 'kong humaba ang buhok niya at pumayat siya.

What have you been doing Chanyeol?

"Hi. So Jesper is your son?" He asked, I don't know, but, he sounded bitter. 

Tumango ako.