Where the Heart Lies

Screwed!

He didn’t say a word. But then again I was rambling on enough for both of us, “Look I only came to make sure you were ok-and your here, alive and well I hope. Now would you get out of my way.” I said while reaching for the elevator pad, my arm had slightly brush against his and tiny electric sparks seem to go off-it was hard to keep my focus on anything else but the way he was making me feel. 

“I always deliver on my bets.” he finally said which made no sense.

“What?!”

And before I finished his lips were on mine-forceful but he made it gentle as not to overpower me and have me fall backwards. I didn’t move the entire time-I stood there not sure what to do-it was like being 12 years old again and being completely clueless but I was clueless when it comes to Eric. Though couldn’t I deny the way how great his lips felt against mine-so perfect as though my lips were only meant for his. He pulled away but he didn’t move-just stood there face to the ground-like a little boy knowing he’s done wrong and waiting for his punishment. 

“Why do you have that Eric?” I pointed to his keys.

“Why are you here Rachelle?” was his replied.

“Pure stupidity, I suppose,” I huffed, “I couldn’t help it I had to know you were ok.”

“Well, I’m not.”

“What do you mean-are you hurt, what‘s wrong?” my voice squeaked in panic.

“I’m fine-I’m fine-but since that day I saw you holding the gun pointing it at Max and the look on your face. I knew I fucked up-the worse mistake I could have ever make.”

“ That’s an understatement.” 

“I know and I’m sorry-and I’m even more sorry I didn’t come after you sooner-you shouldn’t have to come find me. You told me not to take too long.” 

“What does that even mean? You know what, I just wanted information that you were ok and you are-and now I’m leaving.” I stepped back towards the other end of the elevator.

“I understand.” he stepped back to the other side.

“So that was my prize-a kiss?” 

“No-it wasn’t. That’s not the kiss I wanted to give-and definitely not under these circumstances.” 

“Well, the world is a cold, hard place-we never get what we want.” I said sounding a bit defeated. 

“Before you go-why did you come to me that day?”

“You mean the day you kicked me out on my ass.”

“I didn’t--I mean that’s not what I wanted to do. I was angry and impulsive- and stupid I see that now. I saw that when you slammed the door, threw the box in the bin-and especially when I went and retrieve the box and found this.” he held the keychain up.

“That means nothing-its just a stupid piece of wood.”

“Where’s mine? And tell me the truth.” he demanded. He moved towards me and placed his right palm on the wall behind me. 

“Eric, please don’t do this-just press the button so we can get out of here.”

“No Rachelle…I want to know where is the one I gave you.” and he placed his other arm on my other side-effectively boxing me in. 

“That’s not important anymore-none of it.” I snapped. 

“Just tell me!” he raised his voice but it wasn’t out of anger it was more of out pain. 

“Fine! Here!” I reached into my bag and took out the heart he first gave me that day at the Carnival.” When he saw it, it made him smile and then he looked up at me. I lost; my defenses were down and I had no were to run. He brought his elbow down and leaned more into me putting his mouth to my ear. “I’m sorry” he whispered. 

“I know.” I said while placing my forehead against his neck. “ What do we do now?” I asked 

“I don’t know. This is all so fucked up.”

“You don’t know the half of it.” I said thinking about Caleb and Ella and even Ross.

“Ok-how about this-for this elevator ride-we just forget about all that shit facing us out there.” he said while bringing himself upwards. 

“Deal.” I didn’t hesitate I pulled him back down to my lips. This is what my heart wanted-I finally got my Eric. He had his arms wrapped around my waist tightly pressing me against his hard body and we molded together perfectly. I gripped the back of his neck and his  shirt in efforts to pull him closer and closer into me-even when there was no more space between us-I still pulled. 

He grunted and I moaned-both for the same thing-more. It was obvious that the same thought was going through our heads- ‘let this elevator never move.’ 

He was in jeans, Thank God, makes access into his pants a lot simpler-I slid my hands down and held firm to want I wanted to so badly-why are we not somewhere private! 

“I know, I want you too…” he grunted in my ear. 

“Then come on-give him to me now. I don’t care-I can’t bear this any longer.” While saying the words I began to pull my blouse from my skirt so that he could reach under-thankfully, I decided against a pencil skirt today, otherwise this would not have been so easy. 

He lifted me against the back wall of the elevator-and I wrapped my legs around his waist. I could feel his hand slowly creeping up along my inner thigh-and I could think was why is it taking so long. The anticipation was killing me-I wanted him badly and he’s torturing me.

“Ok now-now!” I shouted at him-I didn’t want to be tormented I wanted him completely. And then with another stroke of bad luck the elevator ‘dinged’ and he slid his hand out from under my skirt. With all the excitement-we hadn’t realize the elevator started to move upwards. 

He kept his lips on mine, never releasing me from my pinned position on against the wall. The doors opened up-I couldn’t  see who it was at first, Eric held my attention firmly-things were not as intense-the kisses slowed to more gentle soft touches, and my hand was only slightly over the top of his belt. The elevators door opened again and the old lady left the elevator and told us to get a room-we laughed and I began to caress his face-thinking hopefully soon we will.  

“OK she’s gone.” I said ready to pick back up.

“No, I know you need to get back to work.”“Yeah I do and I know you too.” I said looking like a child being told no more candy. “Eric-are sure you’ll be ok…I mean I heard the news.”

“Don’t worry about me-but for now we need to keep this between us and quiet- I don’t want you getting hurt in all this.”

“Agreed” -I definitely didn’t want Ella finding out and kicking my ass for getting myself into this shit. 

“I wanna see you soon ok?” he asked.

“Ok-just let me know where and when-and you’ll find me there and ready.” 

“This apartment-very few people know about it. It’s a safe house for me, I will let you know when.” he gave me one last kiss and left me standing there feeling very unsatisfied.  My phone rang and I picked up almost mindlessly--hearing the voice on the other felt like having a bucket of ice cold water being thrown over me, effectively killing the fire that burned for Eric. 

“Caleb! Hi.-what? Your in town.....Great! Cant wait to see you too.” 

What the hell am I doing? Somebody please tell me-because I don’t have a clue.